Hi!
I just read that one of the symptoms of scrupulosity or religious OCD is sudden anger (which entails an anger rush and then having a feeling of wanting to think deliberately about evil thoughts and subsequently not feeling guilty about it - until the anger rush passes).. Do you experience this? I had this (though it was renouncing God) and honestly, whenever I have this feeling I feel very scared or something though it also feels like I want to deliberately think about those thoughts. I first read about this in the book and suddenly realized that those anger rush may be a symptom, though I havent read about this in all other books about OCD.
Second question, I can't stop myself from thinking that the HS is the enemy, even though it is NOT an intrusive thought. I mean, I can't stop myself from NOT thinking it even though it is not intrusive. Is this sin?
THird question, I just read something in other threads that it is sin if you enjoy the thoughts. I had some times when I'd playfully think about the blasphemous thought and the renunciation thought - not really enjoy them but sort of, in a way, it's like that. IS this sin?
Fourth question, I have some thoughts that seem to come from deep within me - so even I counter it with vocalizing a "not", it seems to be still uncanceled..
Fifth question, whenever I read or imagine some places or events, such as being in the martyr's cave (or being hold up for your faith), it feels like when I read the words (denying your faith in words), it feels like I myself think about it. Do you have this??
Last question, I'm really afraid about this - can you renounce or irrvocably renounce God in your thoughts?
I just read that one of the symptoms of scrupulosity or religious OCD is sudden anger (which entails an anger rush and then having a feeling of wanting to think deliberately about evil thoughts and subsequently not feeling guilty about it - until the anger rush passes).. Do you experience this? I had this (though it was renouncing God) and honestly, whenever I have this feeling I feel very scared or something though it also feels like I want to deliberately think about those thoughts. I first read about this in the book and suddenly realized that those anger rush may be a symptom, though I havent read about this in all other books about OCD.
Second question, I can't stop myself from thinking that the HS is the enemy, even though it is NOT an intrusive thought. I mean, I can't stop myself from NOT thinking it even though it is not intrusive. Is this sin?
THird question, I just read something in other threads that it is sin if you enjoy the thoughts. I had some times when I'd playfully think about the blasphemous thought and the renunciation thought - not really enjoy them but sort of, in a way, it's like that. IS this sin?
Fourth question, I have some thoughts that seem to come from deep within me - so even I counter it with vocalizing a "not", it seems to be still uncanceled..
Fifth question, whenever I read or imagine some places or events, such as being in the martyr's cave (or being hold up for your faith), it feels like when I read the words (denying your faith in words), it feels like I myself think about it. Do you have this??
Last question, I'm really afraid about this - can you renounce or irrvocably renounce God in your thoughts?