Hey guys its been 6 months but I`m back for this one time only lol
So whats happened to me, well I got a christian counselor! And a mental health counselor
Yea I got my computers (desktop and laptop blocked) and I have porn and youtube and social media blocked on almost all of my computers. I also lasted 15 days from porn and touching yourself
I DID however relasped yesterday due to my ps4 not being locked, now it is.
I graduated from my christian college with a bachelors in psychology
I`ll be going for my masters in social work next year, I also moved away from the MGTOW movement.
I think I mentioned this before but I was a mgtow and a christian, I even had a channel on youtube and I was just in a bad bad bad place in all corners of my life. Well I have put aside the mgtow movement, I`m still redpill though
I`ve held down my job for 2yrs now, I turned 30 this past may. And Ive been looking for an online job so I can move out of my parents house.
I just wanted to say that the past threads I have made were at the time, porn induced, my behaviors and beilefs now compared to the last thread I made has changed quite a bit.
Heres what has happened since the last time I was on here
-I`m not as vicious as I used to be, yea I was really porn sick last time and was addicted to transgender stuff. I was so bitter and angry at women and at myself that I was rabid spiritually and mentally. Well that all has changed!
-I`m going out more, I go to church on tuesday and I have christian counseling on monday and therapy on wednesday, this has helped me get out of the house and helped me read the bible, I have Bible reading to do every week, not that great on that yet
-My need for porn is going away, last time I made a thread, I was heavily into pornongraphy and rage, those were the only things keeping me going in life. I literally just wanted to live long enough to watch the world burn, but now I dont feel that way as much as I used to. I basically just want give my singleness to god and read books LOL.
-I`m trying to lose weight again- My body has stopped losing weight after gastric bypass, I love 150lbs in 7 months last year, now im like 319. I want to lose 100 more pounds, this has forced me to work out and also watch what i eat. I`m trying the atkins low carb diet with frozen meals, and also do IF fasting, hopefully I can lose 100lbs by spring of next year!
-I`m no longer mad at women- When I made my sociopathic child of god thread, I was still really mad at women for thier manipulative ways, everything about them just agitated me. but I couldnt stop wanting them in the porn I was seeing, well after giving up mgtow that hatred for humanity has gone away.
-My sexual nature is budding- Yea this one is still confusing, despite me being strung out on porn for 24 years (I first saw porn at 6) I never have ACTUALLY wanted real sex with anyone. Even during puberty, I was asexual and didnt notie girls until like 19-20. And even at that time I still didnt really want to have sex, so I might be on the asexual spectrum. I`m truly not sure where I`am anymore. Porn really never gave me a chance to develop normally, I never got to discover my sexuality in a normal and steady way, everything was force fed until I fell into the abyss of pornography and transgenders.
Anyway glad I came back to give you guys an update, I`m not on here that much but I come to this site every couple of months. LOL ok bye
So whats happened to me, well I got a christian counselor! And a mental health counselor
Yea I got my computers (desktop and laptop blocked) and I have porn and youtube and social media blocked on almost all of my computers. I also lasted 15 days from porn and touching yourself
I DID however relasped yesterday due to my ps4 not being locked, now it is.
I graduated from my christian college with a bachelors in psychology
I`ll be going for my masters in social work next year, I also moved away from the MGTOW movement.
I think I mentioned this before but I was a mgtow and a christian, I even had a channel on youtube and I was just in a bad bad bad place in all corners of my life. Well I have put aside the mgtow movement, I`m still redpill though
I`ve held down my job for 2yrs now, I turned 30 this past may. And Ive been looking for an online job so I can move out of my parents house.
I just wanted to say that the past threads I have made were at the time, porn induced, my behaviors and beilefs now compared to the last thread I made has changed quite a bit.
Heres what has happened since the last time I was on here
-I`m not as vicious as I used to be, yea I was really porn sick last time and was addicted to transgender stuff. I was so bitter and angry at women and at myself that I was rabid spiritually and mentally. Well that all has changed!
-I`m going out more, I go to church on tuesday and I have christian counseling on monday and therapy on wednesday, this has helped me get out of the house and helped me read the bible, I have Bible reading to do every week, not that great on that yet
-My need for porn is going away, last time I made a thread, I was heavily into pornongraphy and rage, those were the only things keeping me going in life. I literally just wanted to live long enough to watch the world burn, but now I dont feel that way as much as I used to. I basically just want give my singleness to god and read books LOL.
-I`m trying to lose weight again- My body has stopped losing weight after gastric bypass, I love 150lbs in 7 months last year, now im like 319. I want to lose 100 more pounds, this has forced me to work out and also watch what i eat. I`m trying the atkins low carb diet with frozen meals, and also do IF fasting, hopefully I can lose 100lbs by spring of next year!
-I`m no longer mad at women- When I made my sociopathic child of god thread, I was still really mad at women for thier manipulative ways, everything about them just agitated me. but I couldnt stop wanting them in the porn I was seeing, well after giving up mgtow that hatred for humanity has gone away.
-My sexual nature is budding- Yea this one is still confusing, despite me being strung out on porn for 24 years (I first saw porn at 6) I never have ACTUALLY wanted real sex with anyone. Even during puberty, I was asexual and didnt notie girls until like 19-20. And even at that time I still didnt really want to have sex, so I might be on the asexual spectrum. I`m truly not sure where I`am anymore. Porn really never gave me a chance to develop normally, I never got to discover my sexuality in a normal and steady way, everything was force fed until I fell into the abyss of pornography and transgenders.
Anyway glad I came back to give you guys an update, I`m not on here that much but I come to this site every couple of months. LOL ok bye
