If anyone heard my whining about confirmation a while back, I guess I should give an update. You might recall me talking about being confirmed in front of everyone and having my communion like that, not liking the idea.
I think in my head, I wanted faith between God and I. My faith, since I stopped going to (protestant) church with my family as a young teenager had been personal. When I had gone to mass, it was always by myself.
I wanted to be confirmed privately and take my first communion like it was any other.
I won't bore you with all the thoughts processes and realizations since Christmas (when I wanted to be confirmed), but this was a wrong way to think. God could have just as well left His relationship between Jesus and Himself, but He allowed us to be part of that. I was asking for my faith to be personal as well, to be about the Trinity and myself, rather than the Trinity, the rest of the elect and myself.
I plan on (95% sure) being confirmed on Easter, at the Saturday Vigil. Apparently, the Sunday masses are far more popular, so it won't be packed (as I feared it would be) at my confirmation at Easter.
I even admit, some people in my family wanted to go and see me, I didn't want to tell them and instead, go alone. I think I will now...
I think in my head, I wanted faith between God and I. My faith, since I stopped going to (protestant) church with my family as a young teenager had been personal. When I had gone to mass, it was always by myself.
I wanted to be confirmed privately and take my first communion like it was any other.
I won't bore you with all the thoughts processes and realizations since Christmas (when I wanted to be confirmed), but this was a wrong way to think. God could have just as well left His relationship between Jesus and Himself, but He allowed us to be part of that. I was asking for my faith to be personal as well, to be about the Trinity and myself, rather than the Trinity, the rest of the elect and myself.
I plan on (95% sure) being confirmed on Easter, at the Saturday Vigil. Apparently, the Sunday masses are far more popular, so it won't be packed (as I feared it would be) at my confirmation at Easter.
I even admit, some people in my family wanted to go and see me, I didn't want to tell them and instead, go alone. I think I will now...

I'm so glad that you have started to feel and desire the inclusive relationship that we are called to as Catholics. Not the exclusivity of 'just me and God'. Of course God will be with you, but so will we and all the angels and Saints. You're part of a very large family now. 
