Up and down, up and down

[theartist87]

My life is like a roller coaster. Yesterday I was all excited because I got written about in a newspaper article, today I'm down low, feeling so depressed. Work. Family. Money. Everything comes crashing down. My mind is playing games with me. I want to see a shrink... but my family shuns that. I don't need a shrink! I just need to read the bible more! I'll be OK! Want to find a shrink..... Don't know where to look, don't know where to start. Have no money, have medical insurance through parents.. can't let them know, or I'll be in trouble again... up and down... up and down. always. always. I hear them talking to me... I hear them. I don't know... don't know what to do.

 

[anewhope]

I'm very sorry to hear that. I'm going through a similar "up and down" situation myself.

I'm sorry to hear that your family does not approve of you seeing a shrink. Is there any way of convincing them that seeking professional help isn't shameful or embarassing? My parents are sort of the same way; Sometimes I think they can forget how stressful and crazy life can be for us young adults.

Getting your family to understand your needs at this time is very important, but sometimes the people closest to us can be the hardest to convince. Have you tried just sitting them down and having a discussion about how you're feeling and how very important professional help is to you? Maybe you can consider some alternatives to get your mind off of everything for now - hobbies, music, drawing, writing, friends to vent to, anti-depressents? etc.

I really hope you find peace in your life; I'll be praying for you. And please don't hesitate to PM me if you ever just need anyone to listen. God Bless!

 

[Cheyenee]

Why is it that we are all so hard on ourselves! I go through something very similar. You get sick of everyone telling you..pray more..read the bible more..you just need more faith. What you need to hear is just lay it at His feet! We may feel we are not good enough, that we are up and down, but the great news is that God isn't! he is constant, He is I am. I used to argue with God how can you use me? What if i fall short of your glory? What if i fail? God replied with simply "But I won't fail you!"

 

[stacii]

Could you consult with your pastor since your parents won't let you go to a psychiatrist? they are trained in counseling and some can even make clinical diagnoses. Or maybe you could find a faith-based counseling service that your parents would approve of.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

My life is like a roller coaster. Yesterday I was all excited because I got written about in a newspaper article, today I'm down low, feeling so depressed. Work. Family. Money. Everything comes crashing down. My mind is playing games with me. I want to see a shrink... but my family shuns that. I don't need a shrink! I just need to read the bible more! I'll be OK! Want to find a shrink..... Don't know where to look, don't know where to start. Have no money, have medical insurance through parents.. can't let them know, or I'll be in trouble again... up and down... up and down. always. always. I hear them talking to me... I hear them. I don't know... don't know what to do.

Heya bro,

First off, you have to do what is best for yourself, not others. You have every right to ask for help. Ask around, or dicuss it with your folks.

In my situation, bible is a guide post. There are times where I need more understanding to accept the wisdom given. Also I grew up in a world drowning in sin, what I percieve to be normal could be a dysfunction.

After I cut myself from MMO(massive multiplayer games) I got this sheer pain of loneliness. Even made a few posts here trying to comprehend it. I would find myself giving and giving my love to people, then suffer from this pain. Thought it was because I needed a woman in my life baddly. Online tool www.coping.org helped me realize that I was seeking fame or mass affection. I would give love to people on forums and if I didn't see any responce or appresiation I would take it personally. Take the feeling of not being loved and multiply it by 100 or more. All I could do was put my hands over this massive hole in my heart as I felt all my energy just pour out of me. I was dumbfounded since I am pretty antisocial guy and I like to have solitude at times. Sure enough when I stop worrying about if people appresiated me, the pains went away.

I encourage you to;

Matthew 7:7
7 “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.

For the answers to your problems. Like I said might need help sorting thru what is in your head. Got to understand the scope of the problem to really understand the knowledge how to fix it. Then apply it to your life and it becomes your wisdom.

Proverbs 19:8
8 To acquire wisdom is to love oneself;
people who cherish understanding will prosper.

Also don't give up hope, for without it the battle is lost.

 

[theartist87]

This is crazy.. I was so down that night that I went on and found a psychiatrist that was covered by my medical insurance... The next morning, I was back up to normal (though I had a migraine coming on). Didn't call, didn't feel like calling. I couldn't even will myself to call. This is crazy.

 

[rushingwind62]

This is crazy.. I was so down that night that I went on and found a psychiatrist that was covered by my medical insurance... The next morning, I was back up to normal (though I had a migraine coming on). Didn't call, didn't feel like calling. I couldn't even will myself to call. This is crazy.

Sounds to me like you may be bipolar with all the ups and downs. You can feel fine one minute and the next you are up or down. As a bipolar I highly recommend seeing psychatrist and therapist. Meds won't take away all the ups and downs, as life does have ups and downs that go with it, but meds will even out the roller coaster ride so you can manage it. If you are bipolar and it goes untreated eventually it could land you in the hospital ward or worse, psychotic. Praying for you and keep us updated.