Unsafe Feelings

[Forsakenfaith]

There is this girl I adore. She is everything that i should be.
She is loving, random and amazing.
She lets my heart fly free among clouds.
She outrightly told me she loves me.
I felt her love.
I want it.
I want her.
I've become obsessed..
Yet I cant have her.
Shes with somone else.
She is so perfect she cant hurt anyone.
I cant make her make that choice.
If I speak ill of myself she snaps at me for it.
All my imperfections she laughs at.
I cannot be with her.
Hallelujah.
I cannot hold her.
Hallelujah.
How I wish I could lift her heart to the sky.
An angel
a goddess.
Her words I hear only once upon a moon.
Hallelujah.
I could be the most forsaken person
The most lonely of people.
Her beauty is boundless.
Just to have known her makes me praise god for my life.
Every pain i suffer I thank god for.
Ever curse I receive.
I rejoice.
For perhaps one day
angel,
my angel,
I will be with you.
And yet again
I will rejoice
Hallelujah.

Please review my short poem,
A reflection of my situation with a girl. That makes me conflicted, and unsure. yet confident. I cure my pains with marijuana. Please pray for me.
To give me the strength to make it through this time..
God gives me trials and I respond by rejoicing.
By saying hallelujah.
A small penance.
For my sins. My confict curses my mind with darkness..
only doubt, fear and agony are upon my mind.
Please god help me.
I feel as if my very humanity is seiged.

 

[119104]

Brother,

I feel your pain, but you must understand that through our trials we have the opportunity to find Gods love for us. The gift of free will is what keeps you from this woman. There is a reason that she is not with you. Recognize Gods gift of free will as you have descibed. What you must not do is become entraped in the enemies many disguises. Love your neighbor but do not lift them up so as to distract you from our Lord. If this individual is greater to you than God at any given moment you must re-evaluate your priorities of this world. It is an unguarded heart that can make for a dangerous mind. I do not understand your temptations but as I do know how mine effect me and I can only pray and hope that through your own ceasless prayer that you will receive the gift of wisdom and mercy that God has PROMISED to deliver if one asks for it. Do not let the evils of this world make you believe that you cannot call out for the help of our Lord and Savior at any moment, even when your high. Trust me on that one. I am not saying that one action is right and that one action is wrong for who am I to judge? All I'm saying is that I have had many prayers while puffing on a blunt. My prayers are with you. Lean not on your own understanding but open yourself to the Lord.

Your Brother in Christ

 

[Forsakenfaith]

I dont hold her above god, I just cannot comprehend why I am not with her.
I know "god has his ways" Its just a simple question of, why cant I be happy?
Why would god want me to open myself to him? The last time i did all i got was pain.
Is it wrong to fear that?

 

[119104]

It is not wrong to fear at all, fear is healthy. But because God gives us free will he needs us to come to him as he cannot force himself upon us. That is why you must open yourself to God and shake off the oppression of this world.

Attempt to look at it in this light. Why fight for happiness? If our feelings are fleeting and too often misleading why not ask for a lasting peace which is not based on things of this world but Gods endless love. Do not be mislead by your feelings, that is why we have both a heart and mind. Stay strong in the word Brother.

 

[Forsakenfaith]

I am the mustard seed that is thrown and is choked by roots, doubts, and things that get in the way of the light of god, Im scared to open myself to god. Its been so long. I dont believe he can love even me. Not after the crap i've done in my life. not after the words i have spoken, or my deeds.

 

[119104]

Ahh Brother I feel your pain on this subject. I too wake up every morning with the sins of my past weighting heavily on my shoulders. How can an all powerful God love us when we have constantly rejected him? The answer for myself lies in in God's mercy and that he has given us the ultimate sacrifice. For God so loved the world that he gave us his only begotten son so that we may not perish but have ever lasting life. Now thats not the perfect quote from the bible but you understand the idea. Plus I'm not perfect and I ask you who is? To lean more on God's mercy I am currently trying to come before him in solitude, silence, and prayer. Remember that it is the struggle that brings you before God. He will never put you in a situation that HE knows that you cannot handle.

Your Brother in Christ

 

[Forsakenfaith]

Does anyone else reading this agree to this Enligthened man's advice?

 

[Jarrodis]

Does anyone else reading this agree to this Enligthened man's advice?

Yes, hes got some wise words!!

 

[glad-to-be-forgiven]

Yes, great advice!

 

[WhereIsReligion]

Sounds to me as if you are just being human. It is natural to have feelings for someone. Don't do anything radical (I don't think you will but don't) but maybe, you need to make this known to her. You may find you feel better. You may find she feels the same way. Don't live life in a shell, express yourself to her, you may get burned but hey, that's life. It won't always go your way but doesn't mean you won't come out on top. Peace, Love, and Empathy. Meditate on it by listening to your favorite music and think about it. Peace. <(*=*)> <----A baby chick for your enjoyment.