Under The Influence

[BellaRose]

Under the Influence

K A Graaf

As I took another drink to soothe the pain within me
The voice of Jesus began to gently whispers in my ears
“Why do you want to be under the influence of alcohol?
When it is I, who can soothe your aching soul?
Why do you anaesthetize this pain within?
With something, which will only lead you down a path to sin?”

Jesus sat beside me, as I threw another drink down my throat
To drown my sorrows with my own foolish methods and antidotes
I battled and I struggled as the Spirit and my flesh went to war
Then Jesus spoke again, “My child you don’t need to do this anymore
I can feel this ache you have deep down inside
I understand why your sorrow needs to be anaesthetised

Yes, for a moment it may dull your pain
But tomorrow you will only wake and feel the same
You are choosing to be under an influence,
which will only lead you into the dark
Come under the influence of My Spirit
and allow My word to heal your heart
So many of My children do what you do
I could do so much more
than what that bottle will do for you!

I have a drink that can, transform, heal and restore

Once you have tasted, from the river of Life,
you will thirst no more
Under My influence, your mind will have peace
Under My influence, Child, you will be set free
Under My influence, you will never be the same
I will turn your mourning into dancing
your life will be changed

Before you take another drink
and allow yourself to be under alcohol’s influence
Remember that it won’t help
tomorrow you will feel no different
You will still carry the pain you hold now,
for weeks, even years to come
Everything you are trying to hold together
will eventually come undone
Come, My child and surrender to me the alcohol
Let go of that bottle, which you now hold

It will not bring the comfort you so desire
It will not take away the pain I see,
reflecting in your eyes
It will not lead you down the road that is best
It will only cause you more suffering and torment
I want you to be under the influence of my love and grace
I want you to no longer sit in your shame and disgrace

If you come under The Holy Spirits influence
You will begin to see how I can make such a difference

I can heal what you are trying to anaesthetise
Come under My influence and let Me change your life”
Jesus finished speaking, and I began to cry
“Jesus!” I said, “Please take away this pain I feel inside
I don’t want to sin against you by drinking away my sorrows
I know I need to trust You, with my tomorrows
Lord, for so long I have relied on this drink to soothe my pain
I need you to come into my life; I know I need to change”

Jesus rested His hand tenderly upon my head
“My Child, I love you, I am your healer and deliverer”, He said
He peered into my eyes, reflecting deep grief and pain
“Come to Me, I promise, you will never be the same”

“But Lord, I have nothing to offer you, Look at what I have done!”
The Lord answered, “I will not turn you away or reject anyone”

“All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God
Come to me and let me pour upon you,
My grace and unconditional love”
I died for your sin
I died for your pain and the hurts of your past
I suffered in agony
and the sorrow you have had to bare, broke my heart
I forgave the adulterer
I showed love to those who spat in my face
They still hated Me, even though I offered them
compassion, mercy, and grace

I promised paradise to the thief on the cross
I went looking for the one that was lost
I healed the sick; I fed the hungry
I set those who were demon possessed, free
I am the same Jesus, I do not change and I want you to know
I can do for you now
what I did for those people over 2000 years ago

I am still here, walking next to you
I am closer to you than the air you breathe
All you have to do is put your faith in Me
Believe, I can make a difference to your life
Believe, I can bring peace to your troubled mind
Believe, I can heal your wounded, broken heart
Believe, I can forgive the mistakes of your past”

Under My influence, people will be amazed
How I can completely turn around and change
A life, which is broken; a heart crushed and destroyed
I can give a soul in mourning, the experience of My Joy
I am the same yesterday, today and forever
I am the one who can take what has fallen apart
and piece it all back together

I handed the bottle to Jesus
and asked Him to do what He had promised to do
I asked Him to destroy all the lies of Satan,
which I had listened to
I asked Him to do the impossible
and make my life brand new
He did it, and although it took time
I promise, what He did for me He will do for you
So, if you are under the influence of alcohol or drugs
Listen to these words
Jesus understands that your life has been tough
He did not come into the world to judge or condemn
He came to offer you Life; He wants to be your friend
Let go of the things you are under the influence of
Get on your knees and surrender your life to God

Put your trust in Him,
He will do more for you than the things your are relying on
He will give you a garment of praise
in exchange for your sorrowful drinking songs
If you have been where I have been
and you understand and identify with this poem
Jesus is waiting for you now
He is calling for you to come home!

Come to the Heavenly Father, His arms are open wide
He is waiting for you now; waiting for His precious child
He will not turn you away, no matter what you have done
Come now and be under the influence of His Everlasting Love

I have been under the influence of alcohol and drugs
They nearly destroyed my life
and almost took away everyone I love
I have been where you have been and I know it is hard
To open up and trust, with a broken and wounded heart
I know how difficult it is to let go
Of the thinks you have relied upon to cope

I understand how alcohol seems to deaden the pain you feel within
I know what its like to feel so bad,
that you think you cannot come to Him
I understand how your addiction silences your screams
Jesus can turn your life around!
Who the Son sets free is free indeed!
I know the desperation of what its like to be an addict,
Wishing you could somehow turn your life around
I pray with all my heart, you find the Saviour, I have found

Jesus is the answer; He is the only way
Will you surrender your heart to Him today?
Will you let Him heal the pain you are trying to anaesthetise?
Will you let Him come in and change your life?
Will you get on your knees now and pray
Will you trust that Jesus can take all your pain away?

Let me tell you, before I finish writing this poem to you
I know Jesus is the Life, the Way and the Truth!
You may not believe what I am saying to be the true
But after all, assess where you’re at now
What have you got to lose?
Are you happy with the life you now lead?
Come to Jesus,
He is the one who will give your troubled, wounded heart, PEACE!

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[Levi44]

God bless you!!!!!! That was just too awesome! Thanks, Hedi

 

[ThunderStormGirl]

Wow....that was such a beautiful poem. It choked me up a little....

Awesome!

 

[Notrom]

That was brilliant!
It was just what I needed to hear at just the right time. I have always been a Chrisrian yet recently have struggled with life due to one thing and another. I have created my own problems in life and drinking has threatened to take me over for some time. I can relate to that poem so well. It has given me such inspiration and hope and renewed my faith and passion for a clean life.
Thank you.
God bless.

 

[EbonNelumbo]

you have no clue how much that meant.

 

[BellaRose]

Thanks Guys.....im so glad the poem ministered to you
Even though i wrote the poem I have to read it over and over again myself. I battled alcohol addiction for 5 yrs..and i know the struggle.
God bless you all.........hang on to Jesus... I know he does more for ya than the bottle. The bottle nearly destroyed my life. It is Jesus who can restore my life
The bottle helps to soothe pain only for a little while
But the pain is still there tomorrow. Jesus doesnt soothe the pain....he heals it. It takes time...Its just taking everyday as it comes... and holding on to Jesus everyday to get through. You will make it!!
Jesus will help you like he has helped me.... I know how hard it is to overcome.....But Jesus has promised that when we are weak HE will be strong...I dont know where i would be today without HIM and His AMAZING GRACE
God bless you all
Love BellaRose (aka K A Graaf)

 

[tiredmom]

Thank you so much....this was just what i needed to hear. I'm battling, and battling mental illness on top of it as well. Then of course, there are the everyday problems of life in general. Sometimes it's just too much for me.

But I HAVE to keep trying, I have to keep looking at Christ. And your poem was something that I needed to hear today. Thank you.

~~Laurie

 

[HannahE]

awesome, beautiful, you have a talent
thanks for the blessing

 

[PrairieGurl]

What can I say that hasen't been written already?

To know you wrote this poem, just makes it that much more meaningful! You took "my situation" and put it into beautiful words.

Thanks for the heartfelt blessing!