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tronicII
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I am happily married for almost 3 years. I love my husband very much.
I was sexually molested from a small child by my step grandfather. His son, my stepfather also touched my sister and me. My 16 year old baby sitter when I was around 6 or 9 tried to have sex with me and make me kiss and touch him to play his nintendo while my parents were at NA meetings.
I went to college and I put it all behind me. I had a long term BF that I had sex with and never felt repulsed.
I went into the Army and got drunk at a party and my then battle buddy tried to have sex with me when someone walked in.
I got married later. But having sex with my husband (my second partner by choice) has never been pleasurable. I'm almost repulsed by the thought of it) the penis. I've never been with a woman but don't know if being with a woman would make me feel secure and safe emotionally and physically. I would be fine to NEVER have sex with a man. But I do because do man would stay married to a woman who didn't want to have sex.
How would God see that? I feel like if none of this happened I would never feel like this. So how would that be bad to be curious?
I am currently seeing a psychologist but haven't told her this.
I was sexually molested from a small child by my step grandfather. His son, my stepfather also touched my sister and me. My 16 year old baby sitter when I was around 6 or 9 tried to have sex with me and make me kiss and touch him to play his nintendo while my parents were at NA meetings.
I went to college and I put it all behind me. I had a long term BF that I had sex with and never felt repulsed.
I went into the Army and got drunk at a party and my then battle buddy tried to have sex with me when someone walked in.
I got married later. But having sex with my husband (my second partner by choice) has never been pleasurable. I'm almost repulsed by the thought of it) the penis. I've never been with a woman but don't know if being with a woman would make me feel secure and safe emotionally and physically. I would be fine to NEVER have sex with a man. But I do because do man would stay married to a woman who didn't want to have sex.
How would God see that? I feel like if none of this happened I would never feel like this. So how would that be bad to be curious?
I am currently seeing a psychologist but haven't told her this.