Ugh. I miss her.

[aus1990]

My fiance was called away about a year and a half ago. I experienced emotions that I did not know a man could for her. I'd prefer not to discuss the specifics, it's too painful. I'm just not the same since. I've had other gals, but nothing is as it was, not even as it was before I met her. It's not getting better, I've hurt myself, badly. Scars that will never fade. I've lost hope in many things, including my relationship with God. Everything I try, I'm just behind fogged glass, able to observe the whispers and shadows of the happy and loving behind it. I miss that. I miss remembering how to love and be loved. Help.

 

[Chris G]

I'm sorry for the pain that you have experienced and that you're continuing to experience. I can not possibly imagine what you must be going through. I believe that you, if you have the energy to, should write (or atleast read) a bit on the "Self-Injury Support" sub-forums, as reading and discussing with people who also struggle with self-harm may help you cope with the feelings (or atleast give you some more perspective). The "Self-Injury Support" sub-forums is found under the title "Recovery" in the "Mental Health" part.
Now, as I've stated before, I will not lie and claim that I've been through what you have and that I know what you are feeling. However, I have been depressed for a very large period of my life, and thus I do understand what losing hope in life feels like. Wanting to feel happy, just one more time. Because of this, I wish to tell you that even though it doesn't seem like you will ever feel happy again, YOU WILL! And even though you are struggling with your faith, God STILL LOVES YOU!
I'm praying to God to give you the strength and energy that you need to get through the immense pain that you must be feeling, so that you can feel better and feel happy once again.

 

[Bobby64]

It sounds like you've been struggling for depression for quite some time. I know it hurts, so I sympathize with you deeply. I pray that you'll get better. You might want to look into counseling or OTC depression medication.

 

[Criada]

Grief is very individual, it affects us all differently. There's nothing wrong with the wa you are feeling - it's a long journey, and it honestly will get easier in time - how much time no one can say.

God is right with you, even though you may feel he is far away or gone altogether.

You are in my prayers, brother Keep going.

 

[SMacGregor]

Time is an important component in reconciling and overcoming grief and loss. Eventually it is important to “Let go and let God” so that we can move on with life.

 

[RuthD]

Please pray to Jesus to guide your life and you as you go through this time of grief and uncertainty. I am praying for you brother.

 

[Cymro14]

Prayers sent to you. God bless you and give you strength.