Trusting God

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I've had two miscarriages in the past year, and now I'm pregnant for the third time. In both pregnancies, I prayed daily for the baby, ate very healthily, had a heartbeat at seven weeks, and found out I miscarried at my three month appointment. I'm at fourteen weeks now. I have my third ultrasound tomorrow.

The hardest part about this very difficult process has been trying to re-establish trust in my relationship with God. I try not to blame God, but he is the only one who had the power to prevent what happened. To me it isn't so much about figuring out God's motivation in not sustaining my babies' lives. I just can't trust God for anything in the future. I have no confidence in praying during this pregnancy. I do not pray for my dad to be healed of his cancer or for my husband to find a job because I have no faith that God will come through.

I talk to God by sharing about my life with him and asking him to show me my sin or ways I can minister to others. But I don't trust God to help me when I am most desperate for his help. I really struggle with how effective those prayers would be anyway since James 1:6-8 says:

"But when he asks he should believe and not doubt because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will recieve anything from the Lord. He is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."

But when I've miscarried twice after daily prayer, how could I not doubt?

Someone who has already processed through all of this, help me out here.

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[llghoney]

We all may have doubt but it is up to us to shake that doubt & have faith. I think doubt is more of the devil trying to get out us to think that God is not all knowing & loving. We have to trust God even though these things happen to us. I was listening to a pastor last weekend talking about why bad things happen to good people & we do not know for sure. But what we do know is that maybe our story or experience may bring someone to Christ & we can help someone else in the process of what we ahve goon through. None of us would ever imagine that when we got pregnant that we would loos the pregnancy or child. We do have to carry on though & trust that God does have a plan for us & know that one day we will meet our angels in Heaven.

I am sorry for your losses!! Big HUGS to you!!

And congrats on your current pregnancy & will be praying for you!

 

[Jamie09]

me, i have been throught this before...

3 years ago, i was all prepared for another baby, i prayed daily and i was pregnant. during my 5th week of pregnancy, i was bleeding and may miscarry anytime. i prayed daily for a miracle, i trusted in The Lord to get this all worked out for me, buti lost my baby when i was 7 weeks pregnant. i cried so hard, i cried cos i thought God was blaming me for my sins and i asked for forgiveness. i asked Jesus to bring my baby with Him to Heaven.
I tried for another baby, i prayed everyday & i conceived only after one year. today, my son is going 3 years old, gorwing healthy.
have patience, keep the faith. you see, it took me one year of prayers before i conceived.
Walk with The Lord in Love & Grace, He still moves stones......