Total breakdown

[Solus Christus]

It seems like everyone has been abandoning me lately, and no one really cares. My boyfriend moved hundreds of miles away suddenly, and then I got fired from my job.

I hurt myself on Sunday night.

But I was stupid and told someone that I was doing it, and he called the cops on me. Now everyone's acting all sweet around me like they care, but I still don't believe them.

I was almost put in a mental hospital for 3 days, except I was good at hiding what I had done.

 

[ido]

I'm sorry that you are struggling so much right now.

I know the thought of being admitted to a mental hospital sounds horrible, but sometimes it can be a good thing and help get you out of your normal environment long enough to catch your breath and gather your wits - and, most importantly, start getting counseling to help with whatever is causing you to want to harm yourself.

for you.

 

[Solus Christus]

Sometimes it can, but my parents were not wanting to go along with that, even though it was the cops decision. But, like I said, they had no physical proof because it got lost in translation somewhere that I had hurt myself on my arms/wrists, but I don't harm myself there. If they had seen my scars, I think they would've thrown me in the psych ward of a hospital for sure. As it is, I'm being counseled by my pastors, but they don't know the whole story, because I'm not ready to tell it to them.

 

[Criada]

Aw, sweetie, I'm so sorry ((((((((((hug)))))))))

Are you talking to someone about this? I know it's very hard... but you do need some help, and once you get over the hurdle of starting to talk, it does, really, get easier.
Thinking of you sweetie.

I've been in hospital, and although the thought is scary and horrible, it really isn't so bad, and it does give you a safe space for a little while.

 

[ido]

I am praying that you will have the strength to tell your pastors everything soon so that they can get you the help you need and deserve. &

 

[Criada]

How are you doing, sweetie?
Thinking of you.

 

[Solus Christus]

Thanks, guys. I'm doing better. Getting through it all one day at a time. It's a lot of personal things I have to work on, and nothing that's gonna just magically change overnight. Stress has just been taking over my life lately, and I've been neglecting to keep certain sinful aspects in check. So it's really been an eye-opening experience in a lot of ways.

 

[icarusforde]

Thanks, guys. I'm doing better. Getting through it all one day at a time. It's a lot of personal things I have to work on, and nothing that's gonna just magically change overnight. Stress has just been taking over my life lately, and I've been neglecting to keep certain sinful aspects in check. So it's really been an eye-opening experience in a lot of ways.

Good way of dealing with it... Remember, one day at a time is all that matters - take the time each day to read your bible, and pray, and even just talk to God, see what He has to say - it'll blow you away.

Blessings.

 

[Criada]

Thinking of you today, and hoping things are still improving.

 

[Solus Christus]

Thanks. I'm doing better, but still pretty down most of the time. Almost relapsed last night, but I avoided it. I've just been so lonely since I have no where to escape from my "home" anymore. I can't use work as an excuse since I have no job, and no job means no money to go anywhere anyways. I'm hopefully going to get out of here tonight and spend some time with friends. Hopefully.

 

[icarusforde]

hanks. I'm doing better, but still pretty down most of the time. Almost relapsed last night, but I avoided it. I've just been so lonely since I have no where to escape from my "home" anymore. I can't use work as an excuse since I have no job, and no job means no money to go anywhere anyways. I'm hopefully going to get out of here tonight and spend some time with friends. Hopefully.

Keep strong. I know it's time, but remember that God has infinite amounts of strength that you can draw on - when you feel down, pray, ask for strength... and then watch as it floods into you.