Today

[Bluerose31]

I am mourning paganism today. I miss it very much. Its a beautiful religion actually. I considered going back to paganism today but I know I need to be with Christ and miss Christ. He is a beautiful God. I am going to stay a Christian. I was feeling injured today about the torture I endured. I was hurting about what Silver did to me and the hatred that she poured on me. She made me feel less than human. Christ told me to pray for her today and to do something kind for myself. I prayed for her, that she would know that I love her and care about her and that I understand that she is hurting deeply. I just know I can not handle my pain much longer. It is the pain of having been tortured and the pain is severe. I was having suicidal thoughts today. I went to counseling today and also saw Caleb which helped me a lot. This Sunday I will be getting an anointing of the sick from my pastor. I am looking forward to that. I feel very fragile today and know that I badly need spiritual help. Please pray for me.