This Looks Like Where I Should Be Please Let It Be

[BlindAutist]

Hello Readers.

I don't know where to start really. I have a lot of emotional baggage I don't want to go into that I'm working through with God's help. But wise people say you can't go through this life alone it's a good thing to have friends and support. I have a supportive family but sometimes they let me down, rarely, but it happens and in these times, like today, I could use some common headspace to soundboard off from and help me put things in perspective, you know? I don't have any 'friends' to speak of, acquaintances yes but no one else in my family or church is openly on the autism spectrum who can just get it without words.

I love Jesus and I want to praise Him and please Him in every capacity that He has given me. I don't want to feel neglected or that I should hide myself or my light away or that I should hate the way He made my brain to work when it's working inconveniently for others. But some days all I want to do is hide away and never speak to anyone. I complain about my obvious lacking of something when in reality I have so many gains.
I love my ASD I wouldn't be me without it. Yes, there are times when it makes life challenging but whose to say those challenges aren't part of my sanctification?

I know I'm not alone. It's a big world. The internet makes us a global village. I guess today is just a challenging day. I need proof, I need a sign, I need assurance. Assurance that other faithful individuals with ASD's are facing their own challenges to fight the good fight when the enemy seems to be in the home camp where you least expect it.

I feel like I'm just babbling incoherently now so I'll stop. If you made it to the end I'm sorry and thank you. God bless.
B.A.

 

[Rescued One]

Hi! I may not have autism, but I like autistic people. My autistic granddaughter just graduated from high school.

How is your day going so far?

 

[S.O.J.I.A.]

very few people in the world actually have friends. 'friends' is a word that gets thrown around to refer to associates, colleagues, and acquaintances.

the goal is to find people who will support you in a season of your life. they won't be there forever so take advantage of them while they're available.

 

[Kerry108]

Hello. I am semi-formally diagnosed aspie. Meaning- a qualified Phd autism specialist interviewed me and checked some criteria over 2 sessions. He came to a conclusion that I am probably in the mild aspergers range. My spouse is also an aspie, but not diagnosed. I'm sorry you are feeling frustrated. It is tough being autistic in the church ---or in life generally. Although I am glad that you are remembering the strengths of aspergers too. Society is so busy with their own issues that they only vaugely know about the autism spectrum. And most of what they think they know is not accurate. I found a good vlog today on youtube that I think you would like. It is produced by a christian aspie. His name is James Wierenga. If you want to see it go to youtube and type in the search bar; Autism in a christian perspective. It is very uplifting. may blessings come to you.

 

[Sabertooth]

Hello & welcome @BlindAutist .

If you don't mind, may I ask you some blindness-related questions?

My wife was "legally" blind for a while, when she was recovering from a rare type of meningitis. She could see a little bit, but not well enough to process it in a timely manner. Is that where you are, or are you more at the level of distinguishing between light & dark, etc.?

Do you associate with other blind people? If so, are they better at relating to your autism than seeing people are?

The reason why I ask is that I have known one person who was born blind. Looking back, his acuity with his remaining senses strike me as a form of neuro-diversity. That may bring some common ground between the blind community and the autistic (just as it is found between the gifted community and the autistic).

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Hi and welcome here

 

[Chinner.Upper]

very few people in the world actually have friends. 'friends' is a word that gets thrown around to refer to associates, colleagues, and acquaintances.

the goal is to find people who will support you in a season of your life. they won't be there forever so take advantage of them while they're available.

 

[Chinner.Upper]

That is an interesting idea, that few people have friends. I beg to differ. I have some dear friends. How do we grow without friends? How do we even have the strength to go on?
The Bible has a lot to say about friends. Jesus even said, "....I have called you 'friends.'" (John 15:15) Wow. I am moved just by searching for all Jesus' references to friends.
There are degrees and types of friends, just like many words have variations in different languages. E.g. Love and snow and carry. I remember feeling bad when I told someone that the man I was visiting in the hospital wasn't my "friend." What I meant was, we didn't keep up with each other or run in the same circles. But the fellow was in need and didn't have many friends, so I instantly acted like his good friend out of genuine affection and compassion.
If you do find someone you click with, who has room in his/her life for a friend, hang onto them. Take care of that friendship. Friendships are like marriages, which have been compared to gardens. They require regular attendtion to thrive. Good luck. You've reminded me of some friends in need to check on. Most people appreciate being cared about.