Hello everyone, I am an atheist who has a passion for religions, and if there is a religion that has any chance of being true, in my opinion, is Christianity, due to all the historical evidences of the death of Jesus or things like the shroud of Turin. I have watched and read some books about the historicity of Jesus and so on, so if a few years ago I would have been 95% atheist, nowadays I am 70%. I give Christianity much more points but I still have more reasons to not believe in God.
Anyways to get to the topic, in my native language there is a specific branch of speaking that is dedicated to insult the divinities, it's called a bestemmia. Nothing like it exists in English. It is something like f*** God or you describe a divinity with filthy attributes, often you link the divinity to an animal or something like that.
When I was younger, I remember that I read Matthew 12:31 in which it is said that blasphemy against the holy spirit is the only sin that will never be forgiven. And, stupid and arrogant as I was, I willingly insulted the holy spirit a few times that day. Specifically the holy spirit. Now I don't remember the exact words I pronounced anymore, but it was something like I described above, so I either said f*** the holy spirit or I described the holy spirit as a filthy animal or something.
Today I'd never do that. Was that day the day that I have forever condemned myself to hell? Is there any point in me reading all these books and thinking about God all this time if my fate is already signed?
I have already searched this topic around, and pretty much everyone says that it's not a problem and that you can be forgiven. They say that you have to read it into its context, and so only who sees a miracle done by the holy spirit and calls it an act of the devil has actually committed the unpardonable sin.
To be honest though, these explanations that all the gurus give online, seem to me nothing more than some cheap wishful thinking made to make us blasphemers feel better about ourselves.
What is your true, honest, brutal opinion about it? Please answer without trying to make me feel better about myself. Matthew 12:31 seems pretty clear to me, and if it is I hope there is no God otherwise I will be tormented in hell forever, as if this life wasn't already enough.
Thank you for your opinions, please be brutally honest.
Anyways to get to the topic, in my native language there is a specific branch of speaking that is dedicated to insult the divinities, it's called a bestemmia. Nothing like it exists in English. It is something like f*** God or you describe a divinity with filthy attributes, often you link the divinity to an animal or something like that.
31 Therefore I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven people, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. 32 And whoever speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come.
When I was younger, I remember that I read Matthew 12:31 in which it is said that blasphemy against the holy spirit is the only sin that will never be forgiven. And, stupid and arrogant as I was, I willingly insulted the holy spirit a few times that day. Specifically the holy spirit. Now I don't remember the exact words I pronounced anymore, but it was something like I described above, so I either said f*** the holy spirit or I described the holy spirit as a filthy animal or something.
Today I'd never do that. Was that day the day that I have forever condemned myself to hell? Is there any point in me reading all these books and thinking about God all this time if my fate is already signed?
I have already searched this topic around, and pretty much everyone says that it's not a problem and that you can be forgiven. They say that you have to read it into its context, and so only who sees a miracle done by the holy spirit and calls it an act of the devil has actually committed the unpardonable sin.
To be honest though, these explanations that all the gurus give online, seem to me nothing more than some cheap wishful thinking made to make us blasphemers feel better about ourselves.
What is your true, honest, brutal opinion about it? Please answer without trying to make me feel better about myself. Matthew 12:31 seems pretty clear to me, and if it is I hope there is no God otherwise I will be tormented in hell forever, as if this life wasn't already enough.
Thank you for your opinions, please be brutally honest.