The tragic story of Colleen Applegate

[NightEternal]

Her name was Colleen Marie Applegate. She was a small town girl from Minnesota. In 1982 she ran away from home and moved to California where she soon got involved in making adult films under the stage name Shauna Grant.

On March 21st 1984, Grant committed suicide at the age of twenty in Palm Springs by shooting herself with a .22 calibre rifle. Shortly after 7 p.m. she lay down, placed the gun horizontally against her head, and pulled the trigger. The shot passed through her right temple, out the left and into the bedroom wall, according to police reports. The gun was discharged from such close range that the bullet left virtually star-shaped holes. Brain dead, Shauna was rushed to Desert Hospital, where life support systems were disconnected after two days.

She was unable to cope with the guilt and shame of making pornographic movies and decided to end her misery.

http://shaunagrant.imess.net/people.html

It's old news, so maybe your wondering why I would bring it up. No particular reason. I was listening to a CD by the Christian rock group Mastedon in my car today and it had a song on it about her. The track brought this tragic story vivdly to my mind. I can't seem to get it out of my head and it's haunted me ever since.

What a waste. It makes me wonder how things would have been different if someone could have gotten to this girl in time with the Gospel. How many more porn actresses will do this to themselves out of sheer hopelessness and desperation?

Very sad indeed.

Rest in peace Colleen. I hope to see you in a better place and life beyond this world.



Born: May 30, 1963
Death: March 23, 1984

 

[NightEternal]

Here are the lyrics to that song I was talking about BTW:

Innocent Girl lyrics

Artist: Mastedon
Album: It's A Jungle Out There

She was an angel from a small town, no one knew her name​

No one ever thought she'd get caught up in the game​

Her momma tired to tell her, it's a cold and lonely world​

She was looking for a master, he was looking for a slave​

He was headed for the top, she was headed for the grave​

She had everything she wanted, but she had to give her​

Love for all the world to see​

Pre-chorus:​

There's no reason, it had to end up that way​

Her heart was bleeding for someone to take her away​

Chorus 1:​

She's just an innocent girl​

Trying to be a woman in a mixed up world​

now she's a woman of the world​

But she'll always be an innocent girl​

She had her name up in lights, she was a brand new queen​

She had a tear in her eye, as she looked at the screen​

Then she thought about the past, it all happened so fast​

For this innocent girl​

She headed out of town for the weekend with a friend​

No one ever knew she was headed for the end​

They found her on a bed, a revolver in her hand​

What a tradgedy​

(Pre-chorus)​

Chorus 2:​

she's just an innocent girl​

Just a little girl in a grown up world​

Now she's a woman of the world​

But she'll always be and innocent girl​

Chorus 3:​

She's just an innocent girl​

That didn't want to be a small town girl​

Now she's a woman of the world​

But she'll always be a innocent girl​

 

[sentipente]

But it was not her fault. It was our fault. Everyday that we insist on fragmenting ourselves we ensure that we will continue to produce this type of individual. "In as much . . ."