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I was born and raised in a sleepy little town called Semmes, Alabama. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was 7 but didn't really know what that meant at the time.I was born with a rare brain disorder called Agenesis of the Corpus Callosum which the corpus callosum is is either partially missing or totally missing. God has really blessed me because other kids with my disorder usually are bed bound or wheelchair bound for life and are mentally retarded. The doctor who diagnosed me with ACC told my parents that I would never walk or amount to anything. He highly suggested that they put me in a institute and forget about me. If it hadn't been for them, I would not be where I am today and I thank them and God above for giving me a chance to be a normal kid. They raised me as though I had no disabilities but I could always tell that I was somehow different from the other kids and didn't know why they made fun of me. My parents divorced when I was 10 years old and we moved up here to Pinson when I was in the 7th grade and discovered soccer which provided a outlet for my pain and anger at my parents for divorcing and screwing me and my sister over just because they didn't love each other anymore. It wasn't until my Junior year that I discovered the Shma and I have Kyle and Jay to thank for that because if I hadn't found the Shma I would have never found my way back into His arms. It was the Spring Break of my Junior year that I finally realized how different I was from everybody else. I went with my church youth group to a church camp for the whole week. We went high rope climbing and I didn't have enough strength to pull up on the ropes so I had to stay on the ground and watch the rest of the group go through the course laughing and having fun and then later on in the week we went spelunking in a cave and halfway through the cave I got stuck and had to turn around and go back which just added to my sense of failure. I would have been fine if it had not been for Sara pulling out my heart and stomping on it because I asked her about us dating. It still hurts to this day everytime I think about her. Anyway, I came back from camp with my self esteem totally destroyed. I hated myself deeply and turned my back completely on God and everybody else. I was so depressed that I would break down in class all of the sudden crying because I was hurting so bad and then it got worse the following Summer because I just sat at the computer and drank Pepsi and did nothing else except call a couple of my close friends and listen to their answer machine over and over again. Fast forward to my Senior year which was better except that all my friends had graduated the year before so now I felt lonely in a crowd of faces I've known since 7th grade because I was a social outcast. I had good friends that seemed to disappear once school was over. I felt so much like an outcast because no one seemed to want to hang out with me on the weekends. If it hadn't been for Coach Dutton, The Shma and a few close friends I would have slit my wrists and left this Hell on Earth. It wasn't until my Senior prom that God finally put his boot in my **** and told me to wake up and smell the roses. I had a allergic reaction to some shrimp I had eaten earlier and had to be rushed to the ER. I remember waking up for a few minutes and seeing a extremely bright light.
The Light blinded me for a few seconds and then I looked around in wonder. I remember thinking and wondering if it was Heaven because I saw five angels in prom dresses standing around me with smiles on their faces. I remember hearing a deep voice telling me to go back to sleep and me saying Ok before I fell back to sleep again. Next thing I knew I woke up and my Mom and sister were there telling me I looked like the Marshmellow Man and then taking me home. I slept the next few days away as I recovered my strength and finally went back to school with a smile and a load of my heart and soul because I firmly believe that it was God who took me into His arms and told me to go back to sleep. He is still working on me today and slowly healing my emotional wounds and anger I kept bottled up after all these years. Everytime I get in the Moshpit I feel closer to Him and want to scream out every minute and second of my day how much I love Him.
As my most favorite radio personality put it, "Now you have the rest of the story."
The Light blinded me for a few seconds and then I looked around in wonder. I remember thinking and wondering if it was Heaven because I saw five angels in prom dresses standing around me with smiles on their faces. I remember hearing a deep voice telling me to go back to sleep and me saying Ok before I fell back to sleep again. Next thing I knew I woke up and my Mom and sister were there telling me I looked like the Marshmellow Man and then taking me home. I slept the next few days away as I recovered my strength and finally went back to school with a smile and a load of my heart and soul because I firmly believe that it was God who took me into His arms and told me to go back to sleep. He is still working on me today and slowly healing my emotional wounds and anger I kept bottled up after all these years. Everytime I get in the Moshpit I feel closer to Him and want to scream out every minute and second of my day how much I love Him.
As my most favorite radio personality put it, "Now you have the rest of the story."
