We were on depo-provera, and this wasn't supposed to happen.
I had a feeling something was wrong, as I felt a little crampy and my chest felt heavy. So I did a home pregnancy test, and it came up pregnant. So I rushed out and got a different one just to check. It too, said pregnant.
We were happy with just two kids, and didn't really want a third, but there it was and it wasn't going away. So I embraced the idea, and discussed it with the hubby and he came around to being happy about it like I was. Went for my first OB appointment, and everything seemed like it was going well. Started Prenatal vitamins, and all that. Changed the diet and the doctor said I was about 7 weeks along. That was about two weeks ago.
This morning I went in for my early pregnancy ultrasound, and I hadn't been feeling well this weekend. The nurse started to do the ultrasound and noticed a little spotting, so she sent me down to have some bloodwork and everything. My OB came to the hospital, and let me know that my levels were dropping, which meant I had miscarried sometime over the weekend. He said I wouldn't have been able to tell because I was not very far along. He gave me a tight hug and let me cry a bit on his shoulder and he scheduled me to see him in his office on Wednesday. He said that My body would return to normal in a few days.
My heart won't though. And even though it was unexpected, and I wasn't ready for it... I was still happy about it and ready to love another child. I am filled with sorrow right now, and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. I am thankful for the two beautiful boys I have, and I feel so blessed, but the loss is really hitting me. I just want to crawl away.
I had a feeling something was wrong, as I felt a little crampy and my chest felt heavy. So I did a home pregnancy test, and it came up pregnant. So I rushed out and got a different one just to check. It too, said pregnant.
We were happy with just two kids, and didn't really want a third, but there it was and it wasn't going away. So I embraced the idea, and discussed it with the hubby and he came around to being happy about it like I was. Went for my first OB appointment, and everything seemed like it was going well. Started Prenatal vitamins, and all that. Changed the diet and the doctor said I was about 7 weeks along. That was about two weeks ago.
This morning I went in for my early pregnancy ultrasound, and I hadn't been feeling well this weekend. The nurse started to do the ultrasound and noticed a little spotting, so she sent me down to have some bloodwork and everything. My OB came to the hospital, and let me know that my levels were dropping, which meant I had miscarried sometime over the weekend. He said I wouldn't have been able to tell because I was not very far along. He gave me a tight hug and let me cry a bit on his shoulder and he scheduled me to see him in his office on Wednesday. He said that My body would return to normal in a few days.
My heart won't though. And even though it was unexpected, and I wasn't ready for it... I was still happy about it and ready to love another child. I am filled with sorrow right now, and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. I am thankful for the two beautiful boys I have, and I feel so blessed, but the loss is really hitting me. I just want to crawl away.
