Hello fellow brothers and sisters..this is a true story of me...now this is a touchy subject for me..but i will go ahead and do it
i have belonged to Christ for about roughly 1 year and a half from being saved in feburary 2003..this down below happend roughly in 1999 to some of 2003..it starts:
in the fall of 1999..i became obessed with a show called dragonball z..i began as seeing it and then seeing it everyday..i became so obessed i have done some things i am not proud of..i was soo obessed it was all I really thought about most of the time..it was on my mind..soo much...soo obessed..It appealed to me..because of the fighting..the power..I wanted that..soo i got involved in occult activities..I was soo obessed with the show..i looked it up on the internet soo much..furthermore..i appealed to the show..the pain i had.. could be seen in the show..as i watched..it could relate to me..my lonilness..rejection.anger.revenge..etc.in fact..the character vegeta was my ticket..he was the person i felt i related too..so i became obessed with him..I took on the character he had..proud and arrogant..selfishness and all..he related to me..my pain..rejection..lonlilness..despair..pride..ego.revenge..anger.etc..the show appealed to me..in ways such as imaging fighting people in my mind..alot of the time..my mind became violent..and even murder..like i said..i envisioned fighting people..the show..was a way..mixed with other things..as an outlet..or a way to vent my anger..pain..lonilness..rejection and brokeness..etc..the power the people in the show had..i wanted..for myself...because the power i believed would have made me strong..even though i was weak..i used pride as a cover for hurt and weakness..to cover the huge amount of fear i had because of verbal abuse, rejection, lonilness and life trials..so the obession was because of selfishness..and more about brokeness and wanting the power to control what i had lost and didnt want to happen again..this obession lead to my mind becaming violent..and involved in the occult.and leading to further obession with my body..which lead me to injure myself because i brought the show to life ..i overtrained and injured myself..this lead to many doctors..which couldnt do which..it lead to depression and suicidual thoughts. my obession with this show..and my life coupled with it..lead me to be broken down..it lead me to injure my neck..which is not fully recovered today!
However.. as this all happened..in grades 11,12 and college..God had mercy on me when i was broke....i somehow went back to school in the fall of 2002..i pulled it together..and went..injury and all..during this school year..God was calling me..and i responded..i meet people who were christians..my heart was softened..and i accepted Christ in Feburary of 2003..i never would have believe I would have accepted Christ..the way i was before..I thought and said to my friend i was god..and fought against God's existance..but God had mercy and compassion..because He saw me and knew what it was like to have the pain..knew about how I used pride to cover how weak and young i was in my heart..God called me according to His purpose and brought me to Himself for Salvation!
so to end..what was bad..and would of lead me down the road of destruction which i choose myself...ended up being a choice were i chose the narrow path..Christ..and was saved..what was bad..God made into good..He lead me to my Salvation
this is my testimony of how became i christian and how obessed i was with something..it is to warn you of what can happen if you dont watch what you watch..as what i intended to write about...things can be open gates to more dangerous things..as you have read..but also to add..it shows how God..had mercy and compassion on me..fulfilling His plan..and bringing me to Himself for His Salvation..God took what was bad..and made it into good!
PS-God has also promised to heal my condition..so those out there can have hope..you are not alone in your struggles
I hope you learn something from this..and i hope it will do something for you
i have belonged to Christ for about roughly 1 year and a half from being saved in feburary 2003..this down below happend roughly in 1999 to some of 2003..it starts:
in the fall of 1999..i became obessed with a show called dragonball z..i began as seeing it and then seeing it everyday..i became so obessed i have done some things i am not proud of..i was soo obessed it was all I really thought about most of the time..it was on my mind..soo much...soo obessed..It appealed to me..because of the fighting..the power..I wanted that..soo i got involved in occult activities..I was soo obessed with the show..i looked it up on the internet soo much..furthermore..i appealed to the show..the pain i had.. could be seen in the show..as i watched..it could relate to me..my lonilness..rejection.anger.revenge..etc.in fact..the character vegeta was my ticket..he was the person i felt i related too..so i became obessed with him..I took on the character he had..proud and arrogant..selfishness and all..he related to me..my pain..rejection..lonlilness..despair..pride..ego.revenge..anger.etc..the show appealed to me..in ways such as imaging fighting people in my mind..alot of the time..my mind became violent..and even murder..like i said..i envisioned fighting people..the show..was a way..mixed with other things..as an outlet..or a way to vent my anger..pain..lonilness..rejection and brokeness..etc..the power the people in the show had..i wanted..for myself...because the power i believed would have made me strong..even though i was weak..i used pride as a cover for hurt and weakness..to cover the huge amount of fear i had because of verbal abuse, rejection, lonilness and life trials..so the obession was because of selfishness..and more about brokeness and wanting the power to control what i had lost and didnt want to happen again..this obession lead to my mind becaming violent..and involved in the occult.and leading to further obession with my body..which lead me to injure myself because i brought the show to life ..i overtrained and injured myself..this lead to many doctors..which couldnt do which..it lead to depression and suicidual thoughts. my obession with this show..and my life coupled with it..lead me to be broken down..it lead me to injure my neck..which is not fully recovered today!
However.. as this all happened..in grades 11,12 and college..God had mercy on me when i was broke....i somehow went back to school in the fall of 2002..i pulled it together..and went..injury and all..during this school year..God was calling me..and i responded..i meet people who were christians..my heart was softened..and i accepted Christ in Feburary of 2003..i never would have believe I would have accepted Christ..the way i was before..I thought and said to my friend i was god..and fought against God's existance..but God had mercy and compassion..because He saw me and knew what it was like to have the pain..knew about how I used pride to cover how weak and young i was in my heart..God called me according to His purpose and brought me to Himself for Salvation!
so to end..what was bad..and would of lead me down the road of destruction which i choose myself...ended up being a choice were i chose the narrow path..Christ..and was saved..what was bad..God made into good..He lead me to my Salvation
this is my testimony of how became i christian and how obessed i was with something..it is to warn you of what can happen if you dont watch what you watch..as what i intended to write about...things can be open gates to more dangerous things..as you have read..but also to add..it shows how God..had mercy and compassion on me..fulfilling His plan..and bringing me to Himself for His Salvation..God took what was bad..and made it into good!
PS-God has also promised to heal my condition..so those out there can have hope..you are not alone in your struggles
I hope you learn something from this..and i hope it will do something for you