The next step?

[Daysoni]

My counselor says that it's time to move to the next step. She says it is time to deal with the types of abuse that I went through as a child she said that I need to let it out and quit carrying it all inside and that by talking about it and allowing myself to feel the pain and to get angry it may help me to heal in my ED. I have became a master of numbness. And all though I say I don't feel any anger or pain about this she says I do and that it comes out in the shape of my ED. Does any one agree? I'm afraid that by talking about the abuse that I've kept inside that it will make my ED stonger. I have already went though it once why bring it up and go through it again.

 

[madison1101]

Your counselor is correct. You have not dealt with the abuse, and are using the ED as a coping mechanism to deal with the negative emotions the abuse has caused within you. When you bring the emotions to the surface and deal with the abuse and the emotions, it will be painful, oh yes, very painful, but it will be healing.

Your mind is kind of like an abscessed wound. There is something deep inside that needs to be surgically removed, and cleansed out of your mind. It will hurt, but it will not kill you. Once dealt with, you will be free from the effects of the abuse, and free to not have to use your ED anymore.

 

[chaelsworld0o]

I used my ED as a coping mechanism as well. But what I didn't release for 6 years... was that I am not under the bondage of any ED, and those were lies from the devil. It sounds crazy but have you ever felt like your "ED" had a mind of it's own... Ana or Mia... In a way tell you that it was YOUR friend? Whenever I got upset or stressed I would just go throw up or not eat at all. It was like I lost control... but then again when I did it, I was in control again.

God can set you free from the lies. It's wonderful that you've taken the step of going to a counselor. But if you continue to let yourself hold onto your ED as a security blanket, how will you ever survive? God knows exactly how you are. He knows how to heal you.

I'm going to pray that God will heal you ED completely and keep you from the lies of the devil as well as healing you emotionally.

You may be thinking, this girl doesn't know what she's talking about because she's rather young. I may be young but I've been through this 1 too many times. I can relate. Please don't let an age discourage you.

Be blessed sweetie.