Hi StRestlessHeart,
For myself personally within my relationship with Jesus/God and The Holy Spirit, Jesus is always there waiting for me to open up my heart fully to Him again and again thru my heart calling out to Him. When Jesus has not spoken back to my heart, I then know that the sins of which are still present on my heart and soul uncleansed and guilt is present of those through my conscience, need to be repented quickly from my heart in order for my heart and soul to receive Jesus speaking to my heart again.
If that makes sense? My apologies for not being articulate with few words expressed and being long winded.
After having Jesus speaking to my heart, I do try with great effort, not to allow a day pass by without repentance of sins (whether this be a venial sin that has arisen from my past) to Jesus with a contrite heart seeking absolution by Him.
Jesus has already through The Blessed Virgin Mary Mother of God healed my heart from the majority of things from the past 50 years when I had not been attending Confession for years in between.
The first thing that Jesus through our Blessed Virgin Mary guided me to do was opening up my heart to Jesus focussing on His Stations of His Cross and His Bitter Passion in order to Love and Trust in Jesus and in order to be profoundly remorseful in my heart as opposed to just going along to Confession without being profoundly remorseful in my heart. Of course there is a great difference. The same in relation to receiving Jesus' Blessed Sacrament of Holy Communion from our hearts focussing on Jesus Himself.
Our Lady Mary strongly encouraged and guided me to pray The Holy Rosaries daily while calling to mind my sins by Jesus and The Holy Spirit of which Jesus has daily for years and done this in incredibly surprising ways and situations LOL!
Confronting at times!
Jesus Christ our Saviour, God and The Holy Spirit are there always, and Jesus in Sorrow has made this known to me. I have "Felt" and still "Feel" Jesus' Sacred Heart ache at certain times when I have raised the times that I ignored my beautiful most Loving Heavenly Father and Brother thru distractions, stresses and earth matters that I wish had been ignored and instead having placed my Heavenly Father and Brother 'First' at all times, focussing on Jesus!
A Priest said one day during Confession (Father is a beautiful intelligent being though) "I don't think Jesus would be hurt over our sins, its more that we (our souls) will be hurt and are hurt by our sins committed and eternally".
I could not tell Father that this is in part correct and yet in part incorrect.
I know my Heavenly Father's Sacred Heart within our relationship.
I know that Jesus does feel profound pain and agony while in Heaven viewing our sins that are against Him and that God The Father thru Jesus, has Jesus suffering still to this day, because, Jesus wants desperately thru His Love for all of His Children, to save each and every one of us by the time Jesus appears here on Earth and of course at the time each of us crosses over.
Jesus can only give His Divine Mercy to those of whom are repenting and those of whom are sorry to Him and to others for sins from hearts. Jesus can only give His Divine Mercy to those of whom have turned to Him and Love and Trust in Him (in His Holy Will). Jesus says this in His Scriptures, within His Divine Mercy Holy messages to mankind and to my heart. The Blessed Virgin Mary has spoken of this many many times to my heart, that if people are not repenting sins from their hearts to Jesus, then Jesus is unable to take souls into His Mercy, His Divine Mercy at the hour of death.
Therefore, it does not matter how long since Confession over past years, or what the mortal sins or venial sins may be, it matters to open up one's heart and confess/repent in genuine remorse to Jesus and regularly.
The sins that I never thought would matter the greatest are the sins that hurt Jesus the MOST! The sins that were more serious in which I grieved with my whole heart each time, are the sins that had not hurt Jesus as those had hurt my heart and soul!!
I discovered these things from Jesus and The Blessed Virgin Mary during repentance and healing over the years.
Given that my heart and soul felt profound, aching, genuine remorse to Jesus about the more serious sins; Jesus was Joyful and Elated and most Forgiving within His Divine Mercy to forgive me and knowing that these would never again be repeated.
Whereas, the smaller serious sins of which I was not as profoundly remorseful about; Jesus knew that these are the ones that I am more likely tempted again by satan and likely to repeat because I had not viewed at the time in my heart the seriousness of those sins.
For instance StRestlessHeart, the tongue and the vipish tongue are lethal and do great damage and hurt through its nastiness, as does the mind in our thoughts. These are the hidden sins satan has a field day with, because they can be repeated again and again by human beings with ease and regularity many times during each day of the week. The mortal sins probably not as much in terms of different things.
There are so many many venial and nasty sins committed back to back of which remain unrepented from the heart through not having set time aside to ask Jesus daily or weekly to "Call to mind all of our sins, our most serious sins" in accordance with Jesus/God and The Holy Spirit and not so much in accordance with ourselves.
Because, Jesus/God is our Just Judge and Merciful Judge of whom Judge all sins of mankind; not ourselves.
My apologies, a bit off track here.
The point is that Jesus is Joyful and Elated (in His Holy Will) for all hearts and souls to repent sins to Him from our pasts, in particular, more of the hardened sinners hearts coming to Him in profound genuine remorse of which Jesus is most Joyful to forgive. Those of whom are not profoundly contrite or remorseful during repentance or do not wish to repent in sorrow to Him; well, Jesus of course forgives, however to myself, He is not as Joyful as when I have approached Jesus in genuine remorse for that sin and realised its seriousness and damage caused to Him and to others.
It is still our own personal relationship with our Heavenly Father and this situation would be different from person to person (ie all of His Children). Jesus knows all of our Hearts and Souls and Minds best 'sums' it up!
Love and kindest wishes RestlessHeart
