The Great Romance... as it pertains to my life. So I in the past couple of weeks have taken a certain fondness for girl i know, and it is differant than i have experianced before. I would like some advice on how to carry this out. Im going to preface a bit so if u want to get to the Relationshipy bits scroll down to the next paragraph. I am 19, Graduated in 05, lived in new zealand on missions with YWAM for 6 months, been to quite a few coutries for sorter periods of time since, and am currently working in a recording studio recording and producing local and semi local artists. For about six months i have felt an emptyness in my life, and it wasn't God that was missing, although i was feeling a mite bit distant from the big man as well. Its like i have just been missing a large part of my life, and eventually i pinpointed it on relationships. I really wanted to be in a relationship. I had a couple crushes on girls n such but nothing that felt right. ok, so now on to current stuff.
I was sitting on stage before church started and I am talking with the bassist and drummer about whatever, eating a subway. Sam, a friend of mine, walks up from backstage and has somebody with him, but i first greet him n hugs n such, then introduce myself to the person he had with him, Enters Hanna. Now, i have never believed in love at first site. Or rather, I believed of it but i did not think of it as a common place thing. Well, The moment I met her I knew I wanted to spend time with her, and it wasn't because of the way she looked, or her hair, or whatever. I cant explain it. We talked for several minutes, n then church was about to start so i assumed the position and Sam, with hanna in tote took a seat. Service went great, I packed up Church(we rent a theater so we have to take down all our stuff) and went to Afterward* at my friends place. Well she was there so i went and we chatted for a while. Everything i learned about her delighted me, and I could not get enough. eventually she had to leave, as it was quite late and she is a student. So later that week i add her to my facebook, and whilst looking at it, I couldn't help but start giggling. No, really. i just busted out with slightly emasculating laughter because She was so perfect in so many ways. Well, a week goes by, and i am kept from sleep several night because i cant stop thinking about her, and when i think about her i smile n laugh and such, and that does not make for being very tired. So, the next week(or so, i lose track of such things) i give her a call, and see if she wants to have coffee. She in turn asks me if i would rather have lunch and go see a show at her school. I'm all for that, so i quickly agree. That day approaches, i get nervous, i go and it goes great, we had alot of fun it seemed, i get to see her school and meet lots of her friends, n the show was really cool too. Well, we say our goodbyes, and i depart, although there may have been a slight happy dance involved, i cant be sure. Since then I have planned a 4wheeling trip to surprise her with, being that she loves 4 wheeling. Even got her a pink n white bike to use(although i later learned her favorite color is blue...)
Ok, so now for the advice part, I love this girl. I cant help it. I mean, i want to tell everyone about her. I want to barrow her car, just so i can get it washed for her. I have written several songs for her, but none really say what i feel. I am not an artist of words, so i cant really portray what it is like, but to me, it is most like how i think God feels about us. That is how i feel that i feel about her, and i cannot explain it. Ok, so... How do i explain this to her without coming off like a nut job? I so desperately do not want to say something retarded and lose her. I mean, i have changed long long habits simply because i thought "That is so not worthy of her". I am eating better, and running n working out. I am dressing with more care, and speaking with even greater care. Anyways, im not sure if anybody will bother to read all this, but i really needed to write it out, although i would appreciate any advice or wisdom from thoughts who have gone through this.
God bless
In Christ
Joshua
*My church is called Outward, thus, our thing after is now been dubbed Afterwards.
I was sitting on stage before church started and I am talking with the bassist and drummer about whatever, eating a subway. Sam, a friend of mine, walks up from backstage and has somebody with him, but i first greet him n hugs n such, then introduce myself to the person he had with him, Enters Hanna. Now, i have never believed in love at first site. Or rather, I believed of it but i did not think of it as a common place thing. Well, The moment I met her I knew I wanted to spend time with her, and it wasn't because of the way she looked, or her hair, or whatever. I cant explain it. We talked for several minutes, n then church was about to start so i assumed the position and Sam, with hanna in tote took a seat. Service went great, I packed up Church(we rent a theater so we have to take down all our stuff) and went to Afterward* at my friends place. Well she was there so i went and we chatted for a while. Everything i learned about her delighted me, and I could not get enough. eventually she had to leave, as it was quite late and she is a student. So later that week i add her to my facebook, and whilst looking at it, I couldn't help but start giggling. No, really. i just busted out with slightly emasculating laughter because She was so perfect in so many ways. Well, a week goes by, and i am kept from sleep several night because i cant stop thinking about her, and when i think about her i smile n laugh and such, and that does not make for being very tired. So, the next week(or so, i lose track of such things) i give her a call, and see if she wants to have coffee. She in turn asks me if i would rather have lunch and go see a show at her school. I'm all for that, so i quickly agree. That day approaches, i get nervous, i go and it goes great, we had alot of fun it seemed, i get to see her school and meet lots of her friends, n the show was really cool too. Well, we say our goodbyes, and i depart, although there may have been a slight happy dance involved, i cant be sure. Since then I have planned a 4wheeling trip to surprise her with, being that she loves 4 wheeling. Even got her a pink n white bike to use(although i later learned her favorite color is blue...)
Ok, so now for the advice part, I love this girl. I cant help it. I mean, i want to tell everyone about her. I want to barrow her car, just so i can get it washed for her. I have written several songs for her, but none really say what i feel. I am not an artist of words, so i cant really portray what it is like, but to me, it is most like how i think God feels about us. That is how i feel that i feel about her, and i cannot explain it. Ok, so... How do i explain this to her without coming off like a nut job? I so desperately do not want to say something retarded and lose her. I mean, i have changed long long habits simply because i thought "That is so not worthy of her". I am eating better, and running n working out. I am dressing with more care, and speaking with even greater care. Anyways, im not sure if anybody will bother to read all this, but i really needed to write it out, although i would appreciate any advice or wisdom from thoughts who have gone through this.
God bless
In Christ
Joshua
*My church is called Outward, thus, our thing after is now been dubbed Afterwards.
