The Adoration of our Lord

[Junkyarder]

Let me preface this with: I am in RCIA new to the Catholic faith but I've been seeking Christ since I vocally declared him as my Lord and Savior for about 4-5 years now.

My first Adoration was a big event where I didn't understand the language I didn't feel much. But I had a new found respect for our Latin American community and how reverant they are.

Second Adoration absolutely tore my heart apart. I was a crying mess, I was shaking and I never wanted the love I felt to end. I was deep in the woods away from civilization chaperoning young teens who hated being there and were very disrespectful.

Third Adoration was a beautiful musical experience, but I felt almost nothing at all. I enjoyed the perfomance and gave praise to God. A good night, but I expected tears or some kind of response to our Lord again, but didn't.

Tonight, was my Fourth Adoration; again this one was within our Latin community and initially I was simply happy to be present before our Lord, but I did not feel anything. I decided in my heart that I don't need to feel anything at all to serve him.

At the end of the Adoration, oh boy, the Priest came up, lit incense and began to pray in Spanish before the Eucharist.

I can't describe the outpouring of love that filled me, it was out of no where, my mind was totally empty, no thoughts, only my eyes fixed on our Lord in the Eucharist.

I don't think I've ever shed so many tears. My poor bible study buddy Sebastian who invited me thought I was in pain or something considering my state.

I wanted to share this, because I am so grateful that we have these Adorations!!!

If you know of one happening near you please GO!

I find myself in the Chapel often, and yes I sometimes have strong reactions there too. But there is something special about the Adoration with members of the church and a Priest there present with you.

 

[Junkyarder]

I'm afraid that this might be seen as boasting, or that my tears are simply some form of Vanity.

But I can't help but share that GOD IS REAL! And he is working on us, on me! That as wicked as I am, he sees me, he hears me, and he is calling my name.

 

[mourningdove~]

But I can't help but share that GOD IS REAL! And he is working on us, on me!

Blessed be the name of the Lord!

 

[Michie]

Let me preface this with: I am in RCIA new to the Catholic faith but I've been seeking Christ since I vocally declared him as my Lord and Savior for about 4-5 years now.

My first Adoration was a big event where I didn't understand the language I didn't feel much. But I had a new found respect for our Latin American community and how reverant they are.

Second Adoration absolutely tore my heart apart. I was a crying mess, I was shaking and I never wanted the love I felt to end. I was deep in the woods away from civilization chaperoning young teens who hated being there and were very disrespectful.

Third Adoration was a beautiful musical experience, but I felt almost nothing at all. I enjoyed the perfomance and gave praise to God. A good night, but I expected tears or some kind of response to our Lord again, but didn't.

Tonight, was my Fourth Adoration; again this one was within our Latin community and initially I was simply happy to be present before our Lord, but I did not feel anything. I decided in my heart that I don't need to feel anything at all to serve him.

At the end of the Adoration, oh boy, the Priest came up, lit incense and began to pray in Spanish before the Eucharist.

I can't describe the outpouring of love that filled me, it was out of no where, my mind was totally empty, no thoughts, only my eyes fixed on our Lord in the Eucharist.

I don't think I've ever shed so many tears. My poor bible study buddy Sebastian who invited me thought I was in pain or something considering my state.

I wanted to share this, because I am so grateful that we have these Adorations!!!

If you know of one happening near you please GO!

I find myself in the Chapel often, and yes I sometimes have strong reactions there too. But there is something special about the Adoration with members of the church and a Priest there present with you.

Thank you for posting!

 

[chevyontheriver]

I'm afraid that this might be seen as boasting, or that my tears are simply some form of Vanity.

But I can't help but share that GOD IS REAL! And he is working on us, on me! That as wicked as I am, he sees me, he hears me, and he is calling my name.

Boast in the Lord. He is glorious. He is there whether you feel Him or not. Glory and praise.

 

[Junkyarder]

I shared this experience with some of my bible study and RCIA members. I assumed everyone was having the same experience I was having. That the presence of our God was overwhelming for all Christians.

What I heard back surprised me, that they were envious of my experience and that, no, they did not feel much during encounters with the Eucharist.

That's where my worry about boasting comes from.

While trying to figure out why the Lord reveals himself to me in this way. My mind thinks back to my New Age/Bhuddist/Hindu practices I was taught while seeking God blindly as a young man.

I became infested with Demons and looked for help wherever I could. I think my years of being harrassed by Demons has something to do with my reaction to the Eucharist.

 

[Michie]

I shared this experience with some of my bible study and RCIA members. I assumed everyone was having the same experience I was having. That the presence of our God was overwhelming for all Christians.

What I heard back surprised me, that they were envious of my experience and that, no, they did not feel much during encounters with the Eucharist.

That's where my worry about boasting comes from.

While trying to figure out why the Lord reveals himself to me in this way. I've come back to my New Age/Bhuddist/Hindu practices I was taught while seeking God blindly as a young man.

I became infested with Demons and looked for help wherever I could. I think my years of being harrassed by Demons has something to do with my reaction to the Eucharist.

There are lots of people that find peace in adoration but there are many who do not get much out of it. I tend to think it’s a gift of sorts for people like you.

 

[chevyontheriver]

I shared this experience with some of my bible study and RCIA members. I assumed everyone was having the same experience I was having. That the presence of our God was overwhelming for all Christians.

What I heard back surprised me, that they were envious of my experience and that, no, they did not feel much during encounters with the Eucharist.

That's where my worry about boasting comes from.

While trying to figure out why the Lord reveals himself to me in this way. My mind thinks back to my New Age/Bhuddist/Hindu practices I was taught while seeking God blindly as a young man.

I became infested with Demons and looked for help wherever I could. I think my years of being harrassed by Demons has something to do with my reaction to the Eucharist.

Do not be concerned if abundant consolations do not continue. Be joyful that you have them. Mother Teresa had wonderful consolations and then they stopped cold. But she remained faithful and joyful. I have some consolations from time to time and am sustained between them by the memory of them. God is good. All the time. No matter of what my experiences are today or tomorrow.

 

[Junkyarder]

Do not be concerned if abundant consolations do not continue. Be joyful that you have them. Mother Teresa had wonderful consolations and then they stopped cold. But she remained faithful and joyful. I have some consolations from time to time and am sustained between them by the memory of them. God is good. All the time. No matter of what my experiences are today or tomorrow.

Indeed, I am reading "The Discernment of Spirits" and "The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius".

I've experienced a short Desolation of only a week. Where I felt as though God had placed me deep in a hole or pit. My mental maturity became that of a teenager, I was constantly fighting against intrusive evil thoughts.

I did not want to pray, but did. I did not want to attend mass, but forced myself. I knew what this was, thanks to my Christian brethren! They coached me through the desolation.

Being a member of the Body is a great blessing.

I know another is coming, who knows how long it will last. I pray that I will be ready

 

[Michie]

Indeed, I am reading "The Discernment of Spirits" and "The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius".

I've experienced a short Desolation of only a week. Where I felt as though God had placed me deep in a hole or pit. My mental maturity became that of a teenager, I was constantly fighting against intrusive evil thoughts.

I did not want to pray, but did. I did not want to attend mass, but forced myself. I knew what this was, thanks to my Christian brethren! They coached me through the desolation.

Being a member of the Body is a great blessing.

I know another is coming, who knows how long it will last. I pray that I will be ready

Prayers for your intentions. It sounds like you keep up on your spiritual maintenance which can certainly strengthen you in difficult times.

 

[chevyontheriver]

Indeed, I am reading "The Discernment of Spirits" and "The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius".

I've experienced a short Desolation of only a week. Where I felt as though God had placed me deep in a hole or pit. My mental maturity became that of a teenager, I was constantly fighting against intrusive evil thoughts.

I did not want to pray, but did. I did not want to attend mass, but forced myself. I knew what this was, thanks to my Christian brethren! They coached me through the desolation.

Being a member of the Body is a great blessing.

I know another is coming, who knows how long it will last. I pray that I will be ready

Ignatius knew a few things.

 

[Junkyarder]

Many thanks for the wise words of caution and tempered expectation.

You've learned by experience and I take heed.