Thanks for replying to my posts. I posted on four forums, and I got about 30 replies, I read them all very closely and prayed. I am feeling a bit sheepish now, because i surrended the problem and the thing I did not want to change, and I see it in a whole new light. Not as a different behavior, but how God is willing to help me. I was only when I resisted that things felt so bad, and I have an idea that it would have gotten much worse if I had not repented. I feel so much better, I spend the whole weekend thinking. It was the first thing that I had trouble changing and resisted doing, anything else I have changed pretty easily. Anyways, what everybody wrote was very good for me to read.