From about September 2011 to January 2014 I had really been struggling with my physical health. For some reason my joints and muscles were constantly getting injured; my back, shoulders, knees, neck, etc. At the time this all started I was in the process of joining the military so having to give that dream up crushed me. For the next two years I struggled physically and even more so mentally.
Just over two years I leaned on my own efforts to fix myself, I felt like if I pushed harder I would be able to fix all my ailments. I thought my strength would come from me and me alone. However, that drive quickly faded when I would take take one step forwards and what felt like ten back.
I questioned the point of living during my lowest.. I was a 20 year old feeling like I was in a 70 year old's body. I couldn't run, I couldn't horse-around with my siblings, I couldn't do anything physical. Being extremely physical up to this point in my life made me even more depressed.
I became extremely angry at God. I questioned his purpose for me. I turned from Him thinking He couldn't help me.
It wasn't until the beginning of this year until I came to Him.. broken. I was done, hopeless, defeated mentally and physically. I asked him to fix me.
From then on my attitude changed drastically. I began to become thankful for all the small things I was taking for granted; all the things I had been ignoring.
Within the next couple of weeks I noticed I began to be able to go to the gym more than once a week. I stared feeling better and stronger the next two months, and at that point was able to be at the gym five days a week.
Now, several months later, I physically feel like my age. I can run, I can rough house with my siblings again, I can physically tax my body. While it took a lot of patience and determination on my part, I know I wouldn't be a fraction of where I'm at today if it wasn't for The Lord providing for me. I am at the point where I know I'd be fine in the military and that's something I just came to realize the other day.
I just wanted to make this quick post to praise my Lord, OUR Lord, for taking a broken human being like me and making me whole.
"After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you."
1 Peter 5:10
Just over two years I leaned on my own efforts to fix myself, I felt like if I pushed harder I would be able to fix all my ailments. I thought my strength would come from me and me alone. However, that drive quickly faded when I would take take one step forwards and what felt like ten back.
I questioned the point of living during my lowest.. I was a 20 year old feeling like I was in a 70 year old's body. I couldn't run, I couldn't horse-around with my siblings, I couldn't do anything physical. Being extremely physical up to this point in my life made me even more depressed.
I became extremely angry at God. I questioned his purpose for me. I turned from Him thinking He couldn't help me.
It wasn't until the beginning of this year until I came to Him.. broken. I was done, hopeless, defeated mentally and physically. I asked him to fix me.
From then on my attitude changed drastically. I began to become thankful for all the small things I was taking for granted; all the things I had been ignoring.
Within the next couple of weeks I noticed I began to be able to go to the gym more than once a week. I stared feeling better and stronger the next two months, and at that point was able to be at the gym five days a week.
Now, several months later, I physically feel like my age. I can run, I can rough house with my siblings again, I can physically tax my body. While it took a lot of patience and determination on my part, I know I wouldn't be a fraction of where I'm at today if it wasn't for The Lord providing for me. I am at the point where I know I'd be fine in the military and that's something I just came to realize the other day.
I just wanted to make this quick post to praise my Lord, OUR Lord, for taking a broken human being like me and making me whole.
"After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you."
1 Peter 5:10
