Thank You, Lord

[Antari]

All my life, I've been behind the wheel, but never tall enough to see where I was going, nor to reach the pedals. I either stood still, or rolled aimlessly down a hill to my death. I'd often take my hands off the wheel and say "I'm not driving now! Help!" But never scoot over. After a 12 month struggle in my life, with the death of my dad, my God digging into me to fight what was in me, and so many confusing days, I finally let God have the seat, the wheel, and even the whole front cab. The day I gave control up, God showed the most incredible girl in the world to me. She told me how she felt. I had always searched, and everyone I ever saw, they were nothing like her. She's smarter, easy to talk to, sweeter, more in touch with God, has a better, much more caring personality, and there's too much to say. Basically, God took the best girl in the world and showed her to me when I finally let Him take over.

I often wonder why I never just let God control my life before. I still have that one finger on the wheel due to lack of trust, but I know if I let go with that one finger, something amazing will happen... I want to lose who I am, and simply become like Him. I want everything to change completely. My only desire in the world is to make Him happy. I will treat Amanda with respect, kindness, love, and do anything I can to make her happy. I want to show her how much I love her, and show God how much I appreciate her. She is truly a blessing upon the earth, and I simply wish everyone could know as amazing of a girl as Amanda, because if everyone knew her, there would be no pain in this world. I love her with everything I am, Lord, and I thank You daily for bringing us together!

 

[heron]

Antari, congratulations on finding someone wonderful, and letting go!
Jesus said he would bear all our burdens. We were always taught to do it ourselves.