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Glory be to God.
When I joined this forum.
I was into porn, and I was into gambling, I lived a secular life. And overall blamed God when my life sucked. Despite my Christian upbringing and believing in God, I never took it to heart, or had any plans to actually live like a Christian. I'm 40 years and suddenly it struck me, I have nothing to show for it, I have a very empty life. Deep down I knew something had to be done, and that's when I joined this Christian forum to hopefully get me on the right track and I started posting. There is alot of realy nice people on the forum.
But one person above all realy made an impact.
This person, a fellow forum member through our discourse, realy managed to put things in perspective for me. This is a quote from our fellow forum member.
"I’m happy to hear you’re experiencing a spiritual renaissance and I played a small part."
Actually it's much more than that. You have been instrumental in my spiritual growth. Thinking about how spiritually depleted I was and how miserable I was. Your words and encouragement made a world of difference to me and continue to do so. I will leave out your forum tag as I don't know if you want to be mentioned. You know who you are. God bless you.
To go into some details on who I was.
I was into porn for decades, at least for 25 years. I dropped porn, this year, I think it was late August, I managed to go about month without porn, if I even did that. The point is I was given this prayer to break unholy ties and I prayed that, more than a few times actually, and I have not been into porn since. The same goes for gambling, while I was not as heavy into gamling as I was into porn, I still spent money on gambling each week. Not anymore.
I must say, now that I dropped these vices.
It's ironic people that is against Christianity, because they think Christians are a bunch of sheep, that follow God and his word, you lose your free will because you can't do what you want, God wants you to be a certain way, God has commandments. Well I feel more free than ever, as I am no longer ensnared by my vices. I still have my free will and I chose not to reduce myself by watching porn, I chose to save my money, rather than lose my money on gambling. There is an immense freedom in knowing there is someone far greater than me, that will show me the way and all I have to do is ask.
When I was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic and landed on disability with no job, for me It became a jail sentence. I felt disconnected and lived parallel life with the rest of the world. I became a recluse hiding away instead of trying to actually live a little. I blamed God for making me such a deadbeat, why didn't God give me a normal brain, why didn't God make me a millionaire while I was at it, my life was crap I deserved it. Without realising, I can cope without meds, I have never been in a strait jacket, I have never been in a rubber cell, I have never been institutionalized, I can cope preriod! with my disability check God gave me what he promised. I have an apartment, I have food on the table every day, I can clothe myself everyday, I had money for all the bills including electricity and internet. I could even indulge myself with worldly desires, I watched porn, I gambled, I spent money on stupid things like comics. Even when I was an ungrateful sinning bastard, God still kept his end of the bargain.
Needless to say when it dawned on me how ungreateful a bastard I have been and how far I have moved myself from God, and how I have been my own worst enemy by limiting myself and even worse limiting God in my way of thinking and living and believing, it hit me like a brick in the face. Thank God that changed!
I have leaned not to lean on my own understanding.
I am not ensnared by wickedness or perverseness anymore. I know where the pitfalls are.
I don't feel limited at all now, on the contrary. I have options now I didn't realise I had available to me, that's been avilable to me all along. It's so simple realy.
Psalm 37:4
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
With that said.
Thank You God, for great is my Lord.
Thank you Jesus, my Lord and Savior for your sacrifice.
Thank you Holy Spirit, for being the Advocate that will teach me all things.
When I joined this forum.
I was into porn, and I was into gambling, I lived a secular life. And overall blamed God when my life sucked. Despite my Christian upbringing and believing in God, I never took it to heart, or had any plans to actually live like a Christian. I'm 40 years and suddenly it struck me, I have nothing to show for it, I have a very empty life. Deep down I knew something had to be done, and that's when I joined this Christian forum to hopefully get me on the right track and I started posting. There is alot of realy nice people on the forum.
But one person above all realy made an impact.
This person, a fellow forum member through our discourse, realy managed to put things in perspective for me. This is a quote from our fellow forum member.
"I’m happy to hear you’re experiencing a spiritual renaissance and I played a small part."
Actually it's much more than that. You have been instrumental in my spiritual growth. Thinking about how spiritually depleted I was and how miserable I was. Your words and encouragement made a world of difference to me and continue to do so. I will leave out your forum tag as I don't know if you want to be mentioned. You know who you are. God bless you.
To go into some details on who I was.
I was into porn for decades, at least for 25 years. I dropped porn, this year, I think it was late August, I managed to go about month without porn, if I even did that. The point is I was given this prayer to break unholy ties and I prayed that, more than a few times actually, and I have not been into porn since. The same goes for gambling, while I was not as heavy into gamling as I was into porn, I still spent money on gambling each week. Not anymore.
I must say, now that I dropped these vices.
It's ironic people that is against Christianity, because they think Christians are a bunch of sheep, that follow God and his word, you lose your free will because you can't do what you want, God wants you to be a certain way, God has commandments. Well I feel more free than ever, as I am no longer ensnared by my vices. I still have my free will and I chose not to reduce myself by watching porn, I chose to save my money, rather than lose my money on gambling. There is an immense freedom in knowing there is someone far greater than me, that will show me the way and all I have to do is ask.
When I was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic and landed on disability with no job, for me It became a jail sentence. I felt disconnected and lived parallel life with the rest of the world. I became a recluse hiding away instead of trying to actually live a little. I blamed God for making me such a deadbeat, why didn't God give me a normal brain, why didn't God make me a millionaire while I was at it, my life was crap I deserved it. Without realising, I can cope without meds, I have never been in a strait jacket, I have never been in a rubber cell, I have never been institutionalized, I can cope preriod! with my disability check God gave me what he promised. I have an apartment, I have food on the table every day, I can clothe myself everyday, I had money for all the bills including electricity and internet. I could even indulge myself with worldly desires, I watched porn, I gambled, I spent money on stupid things like comics. Even when I was an ungrateful sinning bastard, God still kept his end of the bargain.
Needless to say when it dawned on me how ungreateful a bastard I have been and how far I have moved myself from God, and how I have been my own worst enemy by limiting myself and even worse limiting God in my way of thinking and living and believing, it hit me like a brick in the face. Thank God that changed!
I have leaned not to lean on my own understanding.
I am not ensnared by wickedness or perverseness anymore. I know where the pitfalls are.
I don't feel limited at all now, on the contrary. I have options now I didn't realise I had available to me, that's been avilable to me all along. It's so simple realy.
Psalm 37:4
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
With that said.
Thank You God, for great is my Lord.
Thank you Jesus, my Lord and Savior for your sacrifice.
Thank you Holy Spirit, for being the Advocate that will teach me all things.
