On Easter Sunday I was tired because I had no sleep the night before and disappointed because I was excited to finally get my friends from the dorms to come to church but they didn't. Me and my roommate was a little down but then we thought , the Lord has been too good to us and they will come next time, we need to focus on our praise. And we praised from our hearts and glorified the Lord and the praise was magnified as the church joined in and and then all of a sudden I found myself speaking in tongues. This whole other language I found myself speaking and when it left, I just broke down and cried. I couldn't believe that happened to me and that the Lord gave me that gift, I was surprised and happy and great because I've always wanted to be filled with the Spirit in that way. Those thoughts were really straining. I remember the late nights and long days and moments where I just wanted to lay up and cry but I kept my faith in the Lord. Because even though I was weak, He is strong and even though I was tired He is still strong. I just wanted to share this with you guys because it shows that His gifts are for all those who believe and obey. Regardless if we are sick or different colors or different sizes. The Lord will do for His people. Ever since then I've been doing so much better. Hours go by and I have peace and I'm just so happy. Sometimes I don't even know how to act or respond to this because it's been so long since I've had silence in my brain. It's wonderful. And I praise the Lord all throughout the day. He is amazing yall, He truly is. When I had the thoughts I wanted answers and just for it to be taken away but now I know I understand that if He doesn't take it right away it might be something we have to go through that will make us stronger. When they first came I prayed for it to be taken away and them to go away, and then I found myself praying for strength and faith and patience. If the Lord took us out of every problem right then and there when we asked Him how would we ever know patience and faith and to trust Him. I'm not saying that the thoughts are our faults, I'm just trying to say that just because He hasn't taken some out doesn't mean that He doesn't love you or that He forgot about you. He has a plan to bring us to what He has called all of us to be. He kept me through the situation, I don't even know how I still managed to have a portion of my strength to do simple things like put together an essay when my mind ranting against Him. Or just do anything at all. But throughout it all, no matter how painful it was, I kept going to church and praising and praying and reading the word, doubts flying left to right and aggression and swearing and accusation. My Lord, my Lord but He kept me. Now the thoughts feel like they aren't even there or that they don't matter because I know that the Lord is with me. Like I can't describe it, this peace is just wonderful. I just want you guys to stay encouraged and want to stand as a testimony, because He has brought out the best of me through my worst situation and even though it was hard and so painful and I hated them, He took my worst situation and turned it in my favor. My faith is strong, I can't be moved, He put my feet on solid ground. Remember that we are in His hands and we can't be plucked. And I encourage you all to continue to go to God despite how you feel and how painful it might be, because He loves us all regardless and is proud that we're trying our best and doing our all, to get closer to Him. I pray for this forum everyday and ask that you continue to pray for me and one another . God is with you. And don't get discouraged because the Lord has His own blessings for you and if you see Him blessing others (I had to learn this), doesn't mean that it affects your blessings. He has His own plan for you and His own blessings in store. There is a God and there is power in the name of Christ. Amen .