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They just get worse. Blaspheming God, the HS, and a bad thought about tongues, which true tongues is a holy gift. I have sinned horribly. Awful thoughts, my heart is sick. Please pray for mercy for me. My mouth tastes toxic, I am afraid.
 
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Prayers for you have gone up like a mighty wind to the Throne of God. All of Heaven is listening. Your sins, if you will recall, were erased at the Cross. When you slip into sln, you turn to 1 John 1:9. You read out loud that precious, Holy Scripture. God instantly provides His Amazing Grace directly to you. Give Him Praise!
 
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Aye, I will be praying for you.

I agree with winken, 1 John 1:9 is a wonderful verse.
I recall when I first started my lil journey, there'd be some part of me saying something along the lines of.
God aint worth it, The devils the real good guy, God sucks, things like that.

Stuff that are blatantly untrue, and I didn't like these thoughts.
They came from my head, my mind, but I didn't condone them, I hated it.

I have always struggled with impulsive, violent thoughts, sickening, horrible thoughts.
But the good part of our brain always recognizes this, they're not out voluntary thoughts.
It's something you work on, as everything is, and mine has gotten better, to the point where it rarely happens, so keep up the fight.

We'll all be here to support you when you need it.
 
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I've tried to get the toxic feel out of my mouth but everything seems ineffective. My mind feels crazy right now, like it's a bunch of different things twisting around and smashing each other. Or a pack of wolves in a civil war.
 
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I've tried to get the toxic feel out of my mouth but everything seems ineffective. My mind feels crazy right now, like it's a bunch of different things twisting around and smashing each other. Or a pack of wolves in a civil war.
Aye, funny you should say that.

My sign on my profile has one of the most influential stories I have ever heard.
And it uses to wolves fighting analogy.

 
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Aye, funny you should say that.

My sign on my profile has one of the most influential stories I have ever heard.
And it uses to wolves fighting analogy.

But don't think that evil wolf aint gonna put up a fight, he sure as hell did for me.
But the good one (God) always wins in the end, if you feed him.
 
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Aye, funny you should say that.

My sign on my profile has one of the most influential stories I have ever heard.
And it uses to wolves fighting analogy.


I just think it's kind of.... I don't know. Like Taoism used to be a major stumbling point for me, the concept might not be totally Taoist but God's will is the ultimate, nothing further. Feeding "good" in you is nothing without Him.
 
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I just think it's kind of.... I don't know. Like Taoism used to be a major stumbling point for me, the concept might not be totally Taoist but God's will is the ultimate, nothing further. Feeding "good" in you is nothing without Him.
I agree, that's why you recognize the good that is in you, is God.
The good anybody has is God, in apologetics it's called objective morality.

But if you ignore God, you snuff out his light.
And ignite the devils.

Not to say that you can't relight Gods light, you can, and it seems you have.

The principles of Taoism can be applied, just like the principles of Buddha, they're good principles on their own right, not needed in the Christian faith, but there's something to be learned from them.
They're false religions, don't get me wrong, but there is wisdom to be had.

To put it in more Christian terms, you either feed your flesh, or you feed God.
Your worldy desires will grow, or your faith will grow, respectively.

Either way, the idea is that one of them will win if you just feed them enough.
Feeding faith, or feeding your flesh.

I didn't mean to imply that you have your own good, separate from God, or that you should feed your perception of good, rather than God. God is the ultimate, anything less is not "good".
It's really good that you recognize that, it's something a lot of millenial Christians seem to miss.
 
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First, thanks for sending me the blessings! I will definitely keep you in my prayers.

The fact that your thoughts bother you is a good sign. If you were satisfied with your thoughts, then you might have a problem. Also, sin is sin. If you don't obsess about other sins, you shouldn't obsess about your bad thoughts. As long as you believe in Christ's redemptive work on the cross, you have nothing to worry about.

I don't know your background, but I suffer from a mental disorder. I have racing thoughts 24/7 that I can't control. Many of these thoughts are everything you describe and worse. I just simply admit that I have no control over them. I know God will not hold me accountable for something out of my control.

Finally, all of your sins(past, present, future) have already been forgiven (Colossians 2:13-14). So even if you were intentionally thinking those bad thoughts, which I don't think you were, that sin was already nailed to the cross 2000 years ago.

I hope this helps you. Please don't hesitate to ask me any questions.
 
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Praying for you Deerglow. I can relate to some of what you are going through. You want what is right and that is what matters. God's Word really helps too! another good verse is Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Praying for you sister, the Lord knows your heart. God bless.
 
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They just get worse. Blaspheming God, the HS, and a bad thought about tongues, which true tongues is a holy gift. I have sinned horribly. Awful thoughts, my heart is sick. Please pray for mercy for me. My mouth tastes toxic, I am afraid.

Are you sure you did it intentionally? I don't think so.
 
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Wonderful verse there! and a wonderful chapter!
 
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I just think it's kind of.... I don't know. Like Taoism used to be a major stumbling point for me, the concept might not be totally Taoist but God's will is the ultimate, nothing further. Feeding "good" in you is nothing without Him.
It's important to make what God has revealed guide and confirm the way we feel, and not just be led by the way we may feel.
 
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It's important to make what God has revealed guide and confirm the way we feel, and not just be led by the way we may feel.

Yes, I agree. Our feelings can deceive us, therefore we shouldn't be led by them. I like Jeremiah 17:9 which says, "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?"

It is important to remember that we are justified by faith(Romans 5:1) and not by feelings.
 
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Father I pray blessings on this request and that your Spirit may fill this heart in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the bbnradio.org Family Altar program... BBN Program Schedule

 
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