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tonyk
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I want to become a true Christian and so does my men from 20 Tribal villages who worked for me firstly let me tell you few facts.
I confess that i am responsible for making my friends fight for me, responsible for death of my friend, responsible for shattering dreams of my parents, responsible for chopped hands of my two of my friends, responsible for breaking promises and dropping weapons in middle of fight and watching my friends and men dying to protect me and finally responsible for death approaching me slowly.Am i a sinner?
What is a sin? if sin means doing evil things , killing etc., then i am not a sinner, if sin means betraying men to die, making parents shed tears, betraying duty etc., then i am sinner who should be punished severly. What will be the punishment? is it death or a second chance to correct things. After hearing my story tell me what should be my punishment.
I am Tony,i remember those days when i used to be committed to family values, gained trust among friends, a leader , energy & joy were always around me. I don't know if it was god's voice or emotion of watching deaths of hunted animals and suffering of tribals,i decided to do something for them. I started a small wildlife enforcement group at the age of 20. Illegal wildlife trade is part of general crime syndicates of our area including drugs, gun-running etc., and i decided to eradicate this from my area. We were only resistance to these crime syndicates.
One unfortunate day my father passed away. As only son its my duty to take care of my mother. There were two different ways before me , one is my duty towards my mother and second is my fight against crime syndicates. I choosed the second betraying my mother to face her fate. I committed a sin by shattering dreams and hopes of my mother. Within few days i completely forgot about her and was busily involved in my fight against crime syndicates.
As we were only resistance to them they decided to eliminate us and one tragic day they ambushed us. The members of crime syndicate slaughtered one of my friend to death , chopped hands of two others and they gave me a bigger punishment. If you have the heart listen , they shot me on my spine, Its unfortunate that i was not dead because the bullet shattered by back bone and damages my kidney. I was living in hell lying on bed waiting for death.
Memories of friends who sacrificed their lives lives and future for me haunt me everynight.Eyes of my friends parents filled with tears asking me one question WHY? makes me sleepless. Calls of help from my men and tribals who supported me makes me restless. Everynight i pray to god to make this night last night of my life.
The thinsg which is breaking me to ground is mother taking care of me. Doctors told that i only have few more days to live and my mother is aware of it. I think she is suffering more than me. Her eyes have no expression and she forgot to smile. She has the bravest heart than me because i don't know how she is tolerating pain of watching me dying. I love her a lot if i live again i promise god i will be a good son and will take care of her.
Brother, his is my life and now tell me what is my punishment is it death? or a second chance. I am not afraid to death but before death i want to finish what i started. If you think i have a second chance let me know A.S.A.P. because i don't have much time. I have one more request tell my story to your church members and pray for my mother,my friends, parents of my friends, my men, helpless tribals and god's creatures.I need your help to leave a good path for future of helpless tribals and god's creatures. Hoping i will be live to read your reply. Eagerly waiting to hear from you and your church members.
A Sinfull Soul,
I confess that i am responsible for making my friends fight for me, responsible for death of my friend, responsible for shattering dreams of my parents, responsible for chopped hands of my two of my friends, responsible for breaking promises and dropping weapons in middle of fight and watching my friends and men dying to protect me and finally responsible for death approaching me slowly.Am i a sinner?
What is a sin? if sin means doing evil things , killing etc., then i am not a sinner, if sin means betraying men to die, making parents shed tears, betraying duty etc., then i am sinner who should be punished severly. What will be the punishment? is it death or a second chance to correct things. After hearing my story tell me what should be my punishment.
I am Tony,i remember those days when i used to be committed to family values, gained trust among friends, a leader , energy & joy were always around me. I don't know if it was god's voice or emotion of watching deaths of hunted animals and suffering of tribals,i decided to do something for them. I started a small wildlife enforcement group at the age of 20. Illegal wildlife trade is part of general crime syndicates of our area including drugs, gun-running etc., and i decided to eradicate this from my area. We were only resistance to these crime syndicates.
One unfortunate day my father passed away. As only son its my duty to take care of my mother. There were two different ways before me , one is my duty towards my mother and second is my fight against crime syndicates. I choosed the second betraying my mother to face her fate. I committed a sin by shattering dreams and hopes of my mother. Within few days i completely forgot about her and was busily involved in my fight against crime syndicates.
As we were only resistance to them they decided to eliminate us and one tragic day they ambushed us. The members of crime syndicate slaughtered one of my friend to death , chopped hands of two others and they gave me a bigger punishment. If you have the heart listen , they shot me on my spine, Its unfortunate that i was not dead because the bullet shattered by back bone and damages my kidney. I was living in hell lying on bed waiting for death.
Memories of friends who sacrificed their lives lives and future for me haunt me everynight.Eyes of my friends parents filled with tears asking me one question WHY? makes me sleepless. Calls of help from my men and tribals who supported me makes me restless. Everynight i pray to god to make this night last night of my life.
The thinsg which is breaking me to ground is mother taking care of me. Doctors told that i only have few more days to live and my mother is aware of it. I think she is suffering more than me. Her eyes have no expression and she forgot to smile. She has the bravest heart than me because i don't know how she is tolerating pain of watching me dying. I love her a lot if i live again i promise god i will be a good son and will take care of her.
Brother, his is my life and now tell me what is my punishment is it death? or a second chance. I am not afraid to death but before death i want to finish what i started. If you think i have a second chance let me know A.S.A.P. because i don't have much time. I have one more request tell my story to your church members and pray for my mother,my friends, parents of my friends, my men, helpless tribals and god's creatures.I need your help to leave a good path for future of helpless tribals and god's creatures. Hoping i will be live to read your reply. Eagerly waiting to hear from you and your church members.
A Sinfull Soul,
