Does anybody else out there struggle with this? I know I've posted in other threads about trying to understand his problem and be grateful for the fact that he's (allegedly) trying to change, but I just can't take it anymore. I'm tired of his excuses and justifications and trying to put the blame on me. I'm tired of trying to forgive, of going to bed with someone and knowing that they're sitting in bed next to you, while you're asleep, looking at other women. I'm tired of praying for him. I'm tired of feeling rejected and inadequate. I'm tired of trying to be better, prettier, thinner, sexier. Is there anyone else out there who just doesn't even want to be here anymore, dealing with this day after day?
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Aside from this issue, he's a really good guy. He helps around the house, spends time with me when I'm lonely, and whenever we have a non-inappropriate content-related problem, he works with me in a mature and godly way to rectify it. It's only with regard to this particular problem that he just turns into a completely different person. That wasn't so bad at the beginning, but the deeper he gets into this addiction, the more often he turns into this other guy, and he just doesn't see that.
I'm scared of losing my godly and loving husband to this angry, selfish one that the inappropriate content is turning him into.
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Aside from this issue, he's a really good guy. He helps around the house, spends time with me when I'm lonely, and whenever we have a non-inappropriate content-related problem, he works with me in a mature and godly way to rectify it. It's only with regard to this particular problem that he just turns into a completely different person. That wasn't so bad at the beginning, but the deeper he gets into this addiction, the more often he turns into this other guy, and he just doesn't see that.
I'm scared of losing my godly and loving husband to this angry, selfish one that the inappropriate content is turning him into.
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