suicidal on xmas eve

[newyorknewyork]

hi i feel really depressed
i feel like crawling up in a ball and dying
my husband is still asleep in bed
its xmas eve
i can't seem to escape the pain...
dad took his life last year - its so sad at xmas time without him
i won't get to see my little brother (my mother won't let me)
and this will be the first xmas where i won't see/be talking to my other brother and also one of my friends
they both suddnely turned on me in the last couple of days
its so painful
i don't understand why they hurt me??
i haven't done anything to them...
im not sure i can handle the idea of being all fake and "happy" 2moro on xmas day with my everyone

i dont want to die and i won't its just such a strong temptation in my head right now... i can't seem to find ANYTHING that will make this HUGE painful burden go away...
HELP

 

[ArohaB]

How long have you and your Husband been married for?
Do you have any babies?
Would you like to have children if you don't already?
Are you a christian?

 

[lj4jc]

hi i feel really depressed
i feel like crawling up in a ball and dying
my husband is still asleep in bed
its xmas eve
i can't seem to escape the pain...
dad took his life last year - its so sad at xmas time without him
i won't get to see my little brother (my mother won't let me)
and this will be the first xmas where i won't see/be talking to my other brother and also one of my friends
they both suddnely turned on me in the last couple of days
its so painful
i don't understand why they hurt me??
i haven't done anything to them...
im not sure i can handle the idea of being all fake and "happy" 2moro on xmas day with my everyone
i just went and grabbed a sharp knife..
i dont want to die and i won't its just such a strong temptation in my head right now... i can't seem to find ANYTHING that will make this HUGE painful burden go away...
HELP

I felt like this yesterday. Pray! It is Satan wanting you to do this! Jesus Loves you. Try to think of blessings! This is what helps me. I thank God I hav my health, and I go on from there. Think of God's verses. If none of this works, call the crisis Line! I am praying for you- I love you and care! We have to stick together on this.

 

[lj4jc]

 

[newyorknewyork]

we've been married 13 mths
no dont have kids
maybe one day
yeah im a christian

 

[lj4jc]

I am a single mom carrying the burden for caring for my children alone Is your husband a good man? Thank God, If he is. Go to him- I am sure heloves you. Think of those you would leave behind; how would they feel? I prayed for you!

 

[ArohaB]

does your Husband know how you feel?
Can you go to him for some closeness?
is there one positive thing you can focus on in your life right now and aim towards that?
like is there something that you really want to achieve in your life, what would give you purpose?
are you praying? are you listening to the Fathers answers?

 

[lj4jc]

I come to you in the Name of Jesus on behalf of tsuriyel. Please hold her in your arms and show her you love her. She needs you right now. In Jesus's name - AMEN!

 

[missionary1]

hi i feel really depressed
i feel like crawling up in a ball and dying
my husband is still asleep in bed
its xmas eve
i can't seem to escape the pain...
dad took his life last year - its so sad at xmas time without him
i won't get to see my little brother (my mother won't let me)
and this will be the first xmas where i won't see/be talking to my other brother and also one of my friends
they both suddnely turned on me in the last couple of days
its so painful
i don't understand why they hurt me??
i haven't done anything to them...
im not sure i can handle the idea of being all fake and "happy" 2moro on xmas day with my everyone
i just went and grabbed a sharp knife..
i dont want to die and i won't its just such a strong temptation in my head right now... i can't seem to find ANYTHING that will make this HUGE painful burden go away...
HELP

tsuriyel,

We are here for you and we want you to know this.

There is "hope" even though at times there doesn't seem to be. It is important for you to share with us because we care.

Many of us here have been where you are now and we got better.

Your miracle is waiting for you...


God bless you

 

[missionary1]

hi i feel really depressed
i feel like crawling up in a ball and dying
my husband is still asleep in bed
its xmas eve
i can't seem to escape the pain...
dad took his life last year - its so sad at xmas time without him
i won't get to see my little brother (my mother won't let me)
and this will be the first xmas where i won't see/be talking to my other brother and also one of my friends
they both suddnely turned on me in the last couple of days
its so painful
i don't understand why they hurt me??
i haven't done anything to them...
im not sure i can handle the idea of being all fake and "happy" 2moro on xmas day with my everyone
i just went and grabbed a sharp knife..
i dont want to die and i won't its just such a strong temptation in my head right now... i can't seem to find ANYTHING that will make this HUGE painful burden go away...
HELP

Our Father will never leave you nor forsake you.

This life is full of pain and yet we have a way out if we are willing to listen.

It is to live and help others because we understand.

You have a purpose and it is an important one. It is not given to everyone.

Many times we find that the ones we love the most are taken from us so that we will grow and become stronger then...Our Father can use us to help others.

We must go through everything that we fear so that on the other side we will find that we had nothing to fear in the first place.

Everyone that I ever loved was taken from me in a very short period of time. My mother who was my best friend died in an auto accident. A son died at childbirth. My Uncle died of a heartattack. Both my grandparents passed away, months apart.

It devastated me and our Father healed me. He wanted me to beome stronger so that I could come to you and help you.

You are important to our Father and you are important to me. I am here for you...PM me or let's talk openly on the Board....

 

[lj4jc]

Hang in there- there are people who care

 

[BOJAX]

www.wayofthemaster.com

This site helped me when I was down (well the show actually but same thing) and helped me renew my faith in Christ. Praying for you.

 

[~HopeFloats~]

I am so sorry for your sorrows right now.. Please just talk to God cast your burdens onto Him....

You are loved and this bad time shall pass..

God Bless..

 

[newyorknewyork]

I just want to update you all on how Im doing...
firstly i have to say a huge thank you!
i dont know why (my circumstances havent changed) but i am feeling better
(obviously god is answering prayers)
i really feel better than this morning and i feel there is hope
im not feeling suicidal anymore
praise god
i felt really surrounded by prayer today and i can only thank you all-
my brothers and sisters in christ
i may never meet you but may god bless you for being willing to encourage and pray for me today when i have been so low - and yet a stranger
thank you
and praise god for using you all to bless me today and lift me up
each and every one of you - ArohaB, ljorem, missionary1, bojax and blessed journey
thank you all

 

[ArohaB]

wow what a blessing for us all to hear what our Father is doing for you.
May he bless you more and more so that his glory will be revealled through you and you will become even more of a blessing to others.
This is an awesome piece of news!!!!!!!!!! Thankyou for telling us. You've made my evening.

 

[Just Me Garry]

It is Christmas eve Put Christ back into Christmas ---That is what it is about is Jesus Christ.

Here is God's Phone Number:

Jer 33:3
Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
KJV

 

[Jesus1stKing]

I come to you in the Name of Jesus on behalf of tsuriyel. Please hold her in your arms and show her you love her. She needs you right now. In Jesus's name - AMEN!

AMEN ! !

 

[trinitygrace]

Tsuriyel,

Praise God that he has answered your prayers and that you are feeling better just in time for His day! May God continue to bless you and help you through this hard time. Cling to Him and your family - who love you!

God Bless,
TrinityGrace

 

[daughteroftheking1983]

PTL for His work in your life!!! Now that you are feeling better it might be an opporutnity to seek the Lord for full healing and guidance about how to deal with the difficult family situations that you are in. Is there someone trained in your church to talk to or have them pray with you? Now is the time to let His healing love and peace flow through you. I am praying that our Lord will protect you from anything like this happening again

 

[heffalump_hunter]

tsuriyel,

We are here for you and we want you to know this.

There is "hope" even though at times there doesn't seem to be. It is important for you to share with us because we care.

Many of us here have been where you are now and we got better.

Your miracle is waiting for you...


God bless you

These are wise words and I would urge you to keep communicating your feelings. We are blessed that we can communicate so easily these days and therefore also encourage others. There are many here who are fellow sufferes and we would like to help you and lift you up to God and bless you with encouragement.