struggling

[Loopi]

I havent cut in nearly two weeks, maybe more. Which is really great. But the problem is, the only thing that has stopped me from cutting is the fact on sunday i'm being baptised, and i dont feel right getting baptised when my arms have cuts on them. Scars you cant do anything about so i figured to adopt the attitude of "even though i seek perfection i wear my scars with pride" because i am proud that they are only scars!!!!!

Anyways, erm, yea.....i just really really really have strong urges to cut though, i know things are harder because Satans after me because of what a big step im taking in getting baptised, so things were bound to be rough this week, and i didnt exactly help matters by dying my hair bright red (i love my hair now tho) and it just seems all my pain is locked inside.

I need some prayer big time, i need God's strength in me until Sunday because i really really dont want to cut before my baptism, i dont want to cut ever again really but looking at it realistically i still have the pain of my past to deal with thru therapy so my arms my cop it a few more times. Still. Yea....I'm Struggling...

 

[luv4godremains]

Hey Laura,
am always here when ya wanna chat, u have my email and everything, I'll PM ya my phone numbas so ya can contact me when I'm offline too! I'm proud of ya for doing soo well! You know what? God says that we should all help to strengthen each other, and that we SHOULDN'T judge each other, that God will judge us as we judge others, so, who cares what people think of the scars? anyway, you can always lean on God when times are hard, and he will always be there, when there is no one around, he is always there, always by your side, watching over you, and thinking how proud of you he is! so, when you need to, just call on him! there is nothing he can't do, and the pain you have gone through, it will be used as a good thing when you are older!
sorry for going on for so mong,
God bless hunni
xXx

 

[els_bells]

Praying for you and hope that Sunday is a very special day
xxxxxxxx

 

[Bevlina]

Oh Ella I do love you! With all you go through you uphold and love the other one suffering. Loopi, if baptism makes you stop SI, you'd best have a redidecation each week huh? Praying for you Precious One.

 

[leigh01]

we are all so proud of you for getting so far and i'll prey 4 ya and hope sunday is such a special day 4 u n ya family
love ya
love leigh

 

[Victory of the Cross]

I havent cut in nearly two weeks, maybe more. Which is really great. But the problem is, the only thing that has stopped me from cutting is the fact on sunday i'm being baptised, and i dont feel right getting baptised when my arms have cuts on them. Scars you cant do anything about so i figured to adopt the attitude of "even though i seek perfection i wear my scars with pride" because i am proud that they are only scars!!!!!

Anyways, erm, yea.....i just really really really have strong urges to cut though, i know things are harder because Satans after me because of what a big step im taking in getting baptised, so things were bound to be rough this week, and i didnt exactly help matters by dying my hair bright red (i love my hair now tho) and it just seems all my pain is locked inside.

I need some prayer big time, i need God's strength in me until Sunday because i really really dont want to cut before my baptism, i dont want to cut ever again really but looking at it realistically i still have the pain of my past to deal with thru therapy so my arms my cop it a few more times. Still. Yea....I'm Struggling...

The fact you have not done it for two weeks show's you are stronger that the urges.

fight the urges one second at a time. everyone can fight for one second. and every second you win fight the next. soon you will not need to fight at all. for you will have won completely

I believe in you that you have the strength to stop

 

[els_bells]

I hope that your baptism goes really well, please tell us all about it
xxx

 

[bassdrum1]

i like the aditude you've adopted. thats awsome. good for u for stopping to cut. i'll be praying. i use to cut to and still get urges so i know how u feel. need to talk i'm here.