I've always been one to struggle with my sexuality. I'm a highly social person that enjoys the company of others. However, I guess I loved this company of other people a little too much. 2-4 weeks ago I probably committed the biggest mistake of my life. Though I'm Christian, I used to use a gay dating site to talk to people due to not feeling accepted in my own church (they make their own little groups). Before I was Christian, I was a practicing gay. Anyway, I went to a gay friend's sleepover. I felt safe 'cause I didn't have any intention of the night turning into anything more than a sleepover and more people were supposed to come. It turned out that those people didn't come and I was plunged into a world of temptation that was too much for me to bear. I'll spare you the details, but now I'm riddled with guilt. Moreover, fears of betraying God and losing salvation have set in, along with the fact that stories of people getting HIV emanate throughout my mind. So now, I'm on the ropes. I've gotten rid of the sites and have learnt my lesson on homosexuality, but I don't know if I can come back to God, especially if I may be infected with something that can reduce my natural lifespan by 50 years...