Struggling with OCD

[pickledcarrots]

I am positive that I have OCD [obsessive compulsive disorder]. I've never been diagnosed with it, but I have all of the symptoms of it.

I get these uncontrollable and unwanted thoughts that get stuck in my mind and make me literally think about them all the time. I've never had more than a few minutes without these obsessive thoughts, and they leave me constantly anxious or depressed.

You wouldn't believe the worries I've had over the past, what, five or six years? I just can't stand this, some of the things I think are disgusting and strongly unwanted. I wonder why this stuff even pops into my head!

Prayer would be appreciated. How can I live joyfully like God wants me to if I'm always having unwanted thoughts and worries?

 

[cmsracing]

Hi Apricot0194,
It's a bad news/ good news situation. Bad news is this is probably not something that's just going away on it's on. Your probably not going to "work it out", or "wait it out", as you already know if your 5 or 6 years in already. It's not a spiritual thing and I personally don't think it's a mental thing. It's a physical thing, such as a chemical imbalance in your brain.
The good news is, it being a physical thing, it can be treated with meds and possibly some therapy. The meds alone did it for me.
I STRONGLY urge you to not wait, but to see a Dr. soon.
For many years I suffered with this, my life was mesrible. For years I talked to anyone or everyone who would listen trying to "figure this out". I finally went to see an older fellow I caually new. He was a retired chaplan at a mental institution. He told me that he would be happy to council with me on a regular basis under one condition. That condition was that I would go see a medical Dr. and have him run some test. It's been a long time, but it seems like it was just a blood test. Anyway the test showed that I had a chemical imbalance and he prescribed some meds for me to take. Within a few weeks I was already starting to improve. All these years later I'm still taking that pill every night, but it's a small price to pay for getting my life back.
That's just my $.02's worth.