- Mar 3, 2009
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I don't know if I ever posted my situation but right now I'm suffering with more of a physical OCD type problem but I have struggled with the "Salvation Issue" when it comes to the doubting and wondering if because of sin that I've been struggling with that maybe God is NOT interested in me anymore and maybe that is why I'm not getting any help with my OCD struggles.
In brief what I do, Is I use my tongue to explore the areas of my mouth and I force it as far as I can especially when I find something that brings a curiosity into my head. I got to the point where I was obsessing (checking it) over and over again to where I created a Compulsive ritual in which I was trying to make it stop. I has gotten me to the point where sometimes I'm sitting in my apartment just crying out to be Normal and to see it gone.
It's almost like I'm not even praying for my OCD as a whole to be gone but this particular habit that has driven me to the pit of worthlessness. I feel like I can not be "Normal Again" until this has been dealt with and out of my life.
I think what the major concern is that IF I DON'T check it once in awhile that something will be wrong or something will be out of place and I will miss it.
Going to a counselor IS NOT the answer in my mind because I feel like if they DON'T understand what I'm going through, they won't understand how to help me.
In brief what I do, Is I use my tongue to explore the areas of my mouth and I force it as far as I can especially when I find something that brings a curiosity into my head. I got to the point where I was obsessing (checking it) over and over again to where I created a Compulsive ritual in which I was trying to make it stop. I has gotten me to the point where sometimes I'm sitting in my apartment just crying out to be Normal and to see it gone.
It's almost like I'm not even praying for my OCD as a whole to be gone but this particular habit that has driven me to the pit of worthlessness. I feel like I can not be "Normal Again" until this has been dealt with and out of my life.
I think what the major concern is that IF I DON'T check it once in awhile that something will be wrong or something will be out of place and I will miss it.
Going to a counselor IS NOT the answer in my mind because I feel like if they DON'T understand what I'm going through, they won't understand how to help me.
