I'm a teenage girl, and I, unknowingly, began masturbating. Unknowingly meaning I didn't know what it was called, only that it felt good. Kind of. After doing a long stretch, it hurt a little. I felt dirty when I did it, but I didn't realize. I had no clue I was masturbating until a few months ago, when I looked it up. I grew up in a christian home, accepted Christ as my savior when I was four, and kept God in my life, although I wasn't as close to him as I'd have liked to be, which is all my fault. So when I found out I'd been doing this, I trashed myself after doing it. I've been struggling with this for a few years now, and I can't seem to stop. All the methods I've tried haven't worked, but I've realized in the past month or so that anything I do on my own won't work. Frankly, I didn't really want to stop, not until I realized how bad I'd gotten. I'm so glad I found this site; it reminded me that it's not about me or about fulfilling my evil fleshly desires, but that it's all about Him. I think God has used this and is using it to bring me closer and humble me with the knowledge that I could be at my addiction's mercy if not for God's mercy; there isn't a thing I can do about it without God. I don't have any questions that need answering, I just hope you will pray for me. I am too scared to tell anyone, and I'm not sure if it's because I don't think it'll help or if it is because I think they will see me differently.