struggling to survive

[FIC/forever]

I recently made up my mind to have counselling and was put in touch with a christian counsellor as I have had a lot of stuff coming to my memory lately and after a long spell of depression am finding it hard to pick myself up and all this stuff is racing around in my head and I dont know what to do with it. I also recently told my doctor that I was raped and abused but all this stuff has gave me a feeling of wanting to hide myself away and the counsellor was to phone me at the end of the week to arrange an appointment but she never did. All this time and waiting is making me feel ill I cant even stand my own family being around and long for them to go out to work so I can be alone yet I feel so lonely has anyone else felt like this before, does this make sense!

 

[goldenviolet]

sweetheart, bless your heart! can you phone the counselor and let her know how much you hurt and don't appreciate not being phoned back? maybe she thought you'd call her. some counselors have to make notes to themslves because until the client gets established; they mix up information or forget it, maybe had a family emergency... a good counselor will apologize and seek to serve you better. if you are uncomfortable by phone, you can try email or snail mail. as long as you stand up for yourself. counselors need to know your needs. it's their job to help you through things, even their own short-cummings. it's a learned partnership. i think it will all work out for you. keep fellowshipping here too. xo dee

 

[Criada]

I'm sorry, sweetie - you sound as though you really need the support at the moment.
I know how you feel - we can push the memories down for some time, but eventually they creep out and start to attack again. You need to get some help to deal with them so that they don't come back.
Praying that you can get in touch with the counselor, and that she can help you through this time.

 

[Johnnz]

Feeling socially unacceptable is not uncommon. Don't be overwhelmed by those feelings and thoughts. Call your counsellor and ask about your next appointment. You will feel very vulnerable as you begin counselling anyway, so don't let her not calling you get you into feeling abandoned or rejected.

John
NZ

 

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I know the feeling well. I just want you to know your not alone in this and if you need someone to talk to I'm here.