- Feb 23, 2003
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Ugh
so where do I begin. First off must of you probably dont even remember me, because I havent posted here in awhile. But I need loads and loads of prayers
my life is reaching the lowest point it has ever been.
Youd think graduating from college would make life better. Well I cant find a job. I am working a minimum wage job and a part-time job with my degree that still doesnt make that good money. I am living at home paying little to no rent, which helps. I am also having a hard time getting on health insurance because of pre-existing conditions. My old insurance was 200 some a month, so Ill probably be facing a high premium again once I get on some plan.
Ive also been battling depression since 2003, some days are good, and some are bad. My love life has actually gotten better since I moved back home but that may be a bad thing. Just to give a synopsis: I dated a girl for 5 years, thought that was the one, but guess I was wrong. Well Ive been single for 2 years now and have learned to love and enjoy it. I met a girl about a month ago and weve been hanging out a lot. It seems like she wants to just drag me along, though when we first met she was interested in getting in a relationship. I feel like I spent two years building a wall of not letting people in, and it worked I wasnt sad or depressed about that part of my life. And when I thought I could finally knock the wall down I know have to buy some plaster
Did I mention I really cant do much with my degree besides go to grad school which I cant afford. I really have no idea what I want to do with my life. It is so hard to even get on my feet, I cant even think about it right now.
One more thing I would like to add, and probably the most depressing part of this post last year I was super pumped about my faith. I went to church every Sunday. Read my Bible a lot, prayed, and even shared my faith with other people which for me is hard to do! Haha. But now all that has slipped. I dont go to church, I dont pray, I dont read my Bible. I almost have that dreaded Christian feeling when we want to blame God for everything wrong in our lives. I know thats not true at all, and in fact loosing my faith is the work of Satan. But I just feel like for once in my life something could go right. I feel as if Murphys Law dictates my life. Seriously every day just builds off each other making the next one even more miserable.
Oh well any advice is welcomed of course!
Youd think graduating from college would make life better. Well I cant find a job. I am working a minimum wage job and a part-time job with my degree that still doesnt make that good money. I am living at home paying little to no rent, which helps. I am also having a hard time getting on health insurance because of pre-existing conditions. My old insurance was 200 some a month, so Ill probably be facing a high premium again once I get on some plan.
Ive also been battling depression since 2003, some days are good, and some are bad. My love life has actually gotten better since I moved back home but that may be a bad thing. Just to give a synopsis: I dated a girl for 5 years, thought that was the one, but guess I was wrong. Well Ive been single for 2 years now and have learned to love and enjoy it. I met a girl about a month ago and weve been hanging out a lot. It seems like she wants to just drag me along, though when we first met she was interested in getting in a relationship. I feel like I spent two years building a wall of not letting people in, and it worked I wasnt sad or depressed about that part of my life. And when I thought I could finally knock the wall down I know have to buy some plaster
Did I mention I really cant do much with my degree besides go to grad school which I cant afford. I really have no idea what I want to do with my life. It is so hard to even get on my feet, I cant even think about it right now.
One more thing I would like to add, and probably the most depressing part of this post last year I was super pumped about my faith. I went to church every Sunday. Read my Bible a lot, prayed, and even shared my faith with other people which for me is hard to do! Haha. But now all that has slipped. I dont go to church, I dont pray, I dont read my Bible. I almost have that dreaded Christian feeling when we want to blame God for everything wrong in our lives. I know thats not true at all, and in fact loosing my faith is the work of Satan. But I just feel like for once in my life something could go right. I feel as if Murphys Law dictates my life. Seriously every day just builds off each other making the next one even more miserable.
Oh well any advice is welcomed of course!