Step Study Support

[Mayflower1]

I'm i Celebrate Recovery which goes by the 12 steps and 8 beatitudes in the Bible. We are doing a step study right now, and fixing to do a moral inventory. I already have had flashbacks since starting this and it has been hard so far. I have been in recovery for self injury and past sexual abuse for a long time. I have been well over a year and have been doing good. but it scares me when I have a flashback and the past still hurts even though I have forgiven. it is like when you lose someone. the pain is always there, even though you have worked through it. I was sexually abused. It is a hard hurt I have to continuously turn over to God. I just ask for prayer. I know this step study is good for me, because I find more about myself and it hurts less everytime I do something like this, but it is hard going through it. I've had self injury urges again, and I think this is a contributor. I have a good support system though. just good to have one here on CF also when I don't feel like talking to someone close to me.

 

[If Not For Grace]

Prayers Coming your way. Everything about the 12 Steps is a process, which means it takes time as you say like the healing from a loss. It's about progress not perfection. You are progressing, celebrate that. You will continue to grow.

 

[Mayflower1]

I have a year chip so when I start getting frustrated I look at that to remember how far I have come. I have gone through a few programs, and have spent a great deal of time and energy sorting things out. It has made me the person I am today and I am glad for that. I am a much stronger individual by the grace of God.

 

[If Not For Grace]

I view the inventory as an opportunity, to keep what I have that I need, discard what no longer serves my purpose and to identify and acquire what I need to achieve my goals. I keep it simple. (That did not mean the writing did not get a bit lengthy) Trust God, Clean House, & Help Others.