I feel so frustrated. I'm not happy with the conditions of the body of christ in the town I live in. I want to start a home fellowship that is contemporary oriented(believe it or not there's still places such as the town I live in, where it's real traditional, etc) and where we can sit on the floor and take turns praying for each other and just minister to each other and worship Abba to "Enter the Worship Circle" cd's or Vineyard, etc. I have an acquaintence who came out of a Jehovah Witness church(They disfellowshipped her for having a blood transfusion). (She also is dealing with a rebellious daughter that's messing around with the wrong crowd, drugs, etc, Last night the daughter actually HIT and knocked her down!!). I know she would not feel comfortable in a traditional church. I feel that a home group would be the best way of ministering and bringing people like her into the Kingdom. To be honest, I'm not in a church right now. I myself feel very uncomfortable at the most spirit-filled church that I know of here in town. It's real prosperity-oriented, etc, plus I was briefly in their ladies prayer group but often felt like I couldn't get my prayers in, I felt uncomfortable around some of the ladies for some reason I can't put my finger on. Especially if they think they have to 'disciple' this indian hippie girl" when I have been a christian for 15 yrs already!! And some of them feel uncomfortable around me(some might even think I'm some sort of witch, or something.) I told Abba that I want to love Him and not be a part of religious games.(I went thru an abusive fellowship some years ago) I just want to love Him outside of the religious box. I'm thinking of putting an ad in the local paper(only 2 to 3,000 people here in Mt. View and about.) and I've prayed about this. I want to make sure it's His Will, I don't want it to be tedious. I'm at a period in my life where I had to shake religious junk off of my life. And I make pine needle baskets and listen to Folk music, enjoying the simple things in life--in His Creation, instead of heavy stuff. Actually, I feel so out of place anyway, myself--I don't fit in anywhere--especially I'm too hippyish for the christians here, and too christian for the hippies. I'm Indian hippie christian. And no, I'm not 20. I'm almost 37! Lara