Sometimes I feel destined to fail..

[Poweranimals]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't. I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have. I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

 

[Chris_G]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't. I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have. I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

First, we're all failures in the eyes of God, that's why we need a Savior and depend on His righteousness to be saved.
Second, going to church and growing up in a Christian home doesn't necessarily mean you're saved. That doesn't save you. Was there ever a point in your life when you repented of your sins and called on the name of the Lord Jesus to be saved? Or did you just say a "sinners prayer" and someone else told you you were saved? The bible commands us to repent and believe in Jesus. Is there evidence in your life that you have done that. That's the first thing you should examine, if salvation ever took place.

 

[joey_downunder]

First thing: where did you get the idea that most people actually hear God's voice out loud?!!! However I've heard plenty of christians say that God speaks to them via scripture, or through an inner voice that they recognize as God (in total agreement with the Bible of course), or just a strong sense of which way they should go.

Secondly, to add to Chris G's good entry: assuming that you are saved and completely agree in your heart that this is true...

Romans 10: 9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

..... have you ever learnt all about God's forgiveness and mercy for us and believe it in your heart that this personally applies to you and not just your head?

Ephesians 2:For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast.

FORGIVENESS. What does the Bible say about forgiveness?

Mark #17: The Wisdom to Deal With Failure | Bible.org - Worlds Largest Bible Study Site

http://www.revelife.com/693447531/the-bible-says-that-theres-room-for-failure/

 

[1watchman]

Okay, Poweranimal, is it time for you to be sincere about knowing God? You have been given some good counsel here, so you either want to show faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, or continue your reasoning about God. You, like us all, need to get in conformity to God, rather than just reason about what He and all things are from your own experiences.

- 1 Watchman

 

[Emmy]

Dear Poweranimals. To go by feelings and listen to them, is to invite Satan to lead you and lose all joy in your life. As for Judas, God had not chosen him to do what he did, but God could see it in his character, and God knew what Judas was capable of. The same with Pontus Pilate, he knew what was right to do, but he was too weak-willed, too unloving. Jesus told us what He wants from us: Love God with all our hearts, with all our souls, and with all our minds. ALSO: love our neighbour as ourselves. Start by treating all you know and all you meet As you would like to be treated, with kindness and considerration, selfless love and no strings attached. If you are too tired/listless, ask Jesus to help you. He will give you His Love and Joy to share with others. The Holy Spirit is always ready to give us power if we ask. Always remember: God can see our hearts, and God sees your efforts, and God is Love and loves you. Tell Satan to get behind you, and ask Jesus to give you His Love. With God on our side, NOTHING and NOBODY can hurt or hinder us. I say this with love, Poweranimals. Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

 

[BL2KTN]

You're not a failure, God almost never talks to anyone audibly... I mean, the times that has happened is probably less than 100 for all of history. Stop worrying about this and go be a good person. You'll mess up like the rest of us.

BL

 

[TigerKanga]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't. I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

If we didn't have problems to overcome our lives would be boring.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have. I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

If people heard God audibly faith would not be necessary for us.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

If you pull a miscellaneous part out of the engine of a car it won't run right if it will run at all. You are like that part. So am I. So was Judas. If Judas had not done his part Jesus would not have been sacrificed and there'd be lots of people in Sheol instead of Heaven.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

Same here. At least we know there are others who feel the same way. Misery doesn't love company but it makes it a little more tolerable than being alone.

 

[singpeace]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't. I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have. I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

Poweranimals,

Sometimes, all Christians resemble selfish and lazy idolaters. The Apostle Paul admitted that he battled sin, too. (Romans 7:14-25). Your willingness to self-reflect tells me your heart wants what is right. God sees that.

Judas failed Jesus, and none of us can say we haven't failed him at least once.

You are worth a great deal to God, and the blood of Jesus Christ has made you clean. Knowing where your weaknesses are means you are willing for God to mold you.

Beating up on yourself goes against God and is the result of listening to Satan's lies. Satan is the accuser of the children of God. He wants you to feel worthless. Resist those lies and replace them with God's truth.

You say you lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, and self-control. These are the fruit of the Spirit, and you can produce a lot with a made-up mind to serve God regardless of how things look or feel. Blind faith is exactly what we have.


For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)

I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8 (AMP)

Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)

He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. Psalm 62:6 (AMP)

Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)

The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)

 

[ServantJohn]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't.

Have you ever been born again? If not, that is where you must start. Growing up in a Christian home and knowing the stories isn't enough.

I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

You have the beginnings of a really good confession right here. Read what you wrote here to God and know that He is faithful and just to forgive you if you are truly repentant which will be evidenced by your fruits.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have.

As stated previously by others, most do NOT hear God audibly. The Bible teaches that the sheep will know the voice of the Shepherd, but this is a still small inward voice. What do you think brought you here to this site? What do you think revealed to you your sin? What is leading you to read your Bible and pray? All of those are instances where one could easily argue that God is calling you and that you DO hear the Shepherd's voice calling.

I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

God says He has great plans for you as He does for all of His children that will obey Him. You have to decide whether you want the things of this world or the things of God. You cannot have both. If you want God and His presence in your life, you must be willing to obey Him.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

None of us are any better than Judas or Pilate. We all are sinners called by God's grace, justified by God's grace, sanctified by His grace, and one day will be free of our fleshly desires completely and spend eternity in His presence by His grace.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

You may not be capable of them, but God is.

 

[sbbqb7n16]

“For I have no pleasure in the death of anyone who dies,” declares the Lord GOD. “Therefore, repent and live.”
Ezekiel 18:32

"If it is disagreeable in your sight to serve the LORD, choose for yourselves today whom you will serve: whether the gods which your fathers served which were beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you are living; but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD."
Joshua 24:15


You are not destined to fail. God takes no pleasure in seeing someone fail to honor Him - He wants you to repent and live. It is up to you to choose. So choose to serve the Lord.

 

[k.miles]

Poweranimals,

I recommend you read this blog post about how are thoughts affect us. Copy and paste it in your url:

whatyoudontunderstandcanhurtyou.com/blogs.parasites.htm

 

[jonathonbyrd]

I've grown up in a Christian home and have pretty much gone to church all my life. I should have an amazing walk with God by now but I don't. I'm lazy, I'm selfish, and I struggle with idolotry. I try to read my Bible and pray but I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I feel like the soil that allows the axieties of life choke the message of God in my life.

Sometimes I'll beg God to talk to me and I get nothing. Most people hear God audibly but I never have. I know God wants me to have faith but sometimes I feel like it's blind faith. Lately I've been struggling to even get out of bed in the morning because I don't feel like there's a point.

Look at Judas. His destiny was to betray Jesus. What makes me any better than Judas? Or Pilate who didn't have any backbone? I just don't feel like a good Christian and I feel like I'll never amount to much for the kingdom of God.

I lack joy, peace, faith, kindness, self control, etc. I want them badly but I'm not sure I'm even capable of them.

I'm sorry to say this to you, but growing up in a christian home does not make anybody a christian. Learning to be obedient to God is what makes you a christian.

You lack the very fruit that the Holy Spirit gives a person, so my only conclusion, is that God has not given you the Holy Spirit. For He says, that a bad tree cannot bear good fruit and a good tree cannot bear bad fruit.

Have you been teaching yourself how to be obedient to Christ? This is what God is demanding from each and every one of us, that we learn to obey His every command.

Focus on obeying Christ and He will give you the Holy Spirit. (Acts 5:32) Your live WILL change and people will notice.

 

[Poweranimals]

I'm sorry to say this to you, but growing up in a christian home does not make anybody a christian. Learning to be obedient to God is what makes you a christian.

I do realize that however I have always pursued a relationship with Christ.

You lack the very fruit that the Holy Spirit gives a person, so my only conclusion, is that God has not given you the Holy Spirit. For He says, that a bad tree cannot bear good fruit and a good tree cannot bear bad fruit.

You're probably right and that's what troubles me.

At church on Sunday, the speaker talked about dying to self which is something I struggle with. It's difficult to even think about. During worship I cried out to God and it seemed as though something stirred inside. But when I went back to my normal life, I still felt uncertain and overwhelmed.

I was recently researching a program called YWAM and felt like God was calling me to join. It would be an oppurtunity to grow closer to God and grow as a Christian. Then I started looking at prices and realized there's no way I can afford it. Things started to seem hopeless. Why would God challenge me to this oppurtunity if it's not what he has in store for me?

Or maybe I just have no idea what God wants for me.

 

[jonathonbyrd]

You are yearning for a relationship, but you lack it, because you don't know how to develop that relationship. The reason that you don't know how to build a relationship with Christ is because you don't understand Christ and you don't understand what He wants you to do.

Is that accurate?

The sum of the equation will never change if the variables never change. You continue to ask people who don't know God, how you yourself can know Him. Once you begin to understand who God is, you'll begin to realize that many people don't know God. It's impossible to have faith in somebody that you do not know personally and once you know many people personally, their character makes it impossible for you to have faith in them.

But when you know God personally, you'll see that you can have nothing but Faith in God.

You, like many other that are professing Jesus as Lord, are only professing it and not acting upon it. God is calling you to act, He's not calling you to join a bunch of ministries, you willn't find Him there.

The only place that you can go to get to know God better, is the Bible. There is no substitute.

You mentioned that you try to read the bible but you get discouraged. Your discouragement is because you are blindly reading and you don't know what to look for.

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Let me again summarize what I assume your pastors have told you. They may have asked you if you wanted to invite Christ into your life and then had you repeat some kind of prayer inviting Him in.

Then they may have told you that your sin is forgiven and now you need to focus on building your relationship with Christ.

Although this sounds good and all, it's not what Christ preached. Here is what God told these pastors and preachers to do, but they ignore Christ: Mathew 28:19 "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you."

Here is what God commanded you to do: https://docs.google.com/Doc?docid=0AWAQrsb7SooYZGdxdjU3ejdfMzI0Z20zNjZ3cjk&hl=en

Here are some of my sermon notes that will assist you in true discipleship: https://docs.google.com/Doc?docid=0AWAQrsb7SooYZGdxdjU3ejdfMzIyZzRqaDgzY2g&hl=en

Begin to use the bible to define words used in the bible, that's a start.

 

[SoulfilledCanvas]

I understand what you are saying, I was there. If you would like my advice Ill post it, Anxiety and the nagging thoughts of doubt in your mind are put there by satan, you should find confidence in yourself, In your life.
The best thing you can do is simply pray for peace, calmness and solitude and the lord will grant it "ask and you shall recieve". Find patience, and meditate and concentrate on what it is that you enjoy in life, and the lord. And that will give you the basis for which you can build that strong relationship with God, and your life.

 

[TigerKanga]

I was just thinking, maybe you are destined to fail. Only by first failing can any measure of success be properly appreciated. Prepare to succeed once the time comes.