so...yes I could use some support

[fragmentsofbeauty]

I was talking to someone today, told them how much pain I was in, that I've been dealing with depression, being suicidal, cutting, and eating disorders to cover all the bases that fit neatly in a box. He said I need to ask for people to pour into me, for their wisdom, support and prayer but when I said I felt selfish to ask for people's help he said I was really just being proud. So...just to know people are there with me on here is helpful and any prayer would be appreciated ofcourse advice is always welcome and I did just start seeing a counselor btw so I'm on the right track, just a bit frail at this point and know I can't be so proud as to think I don't need other people to help me through this. Thanks,

Always,
Christina

 

[madison1101]

I totally understand how you have been feeling. At one time in my life, I felt and did similar things. I am not a therapist and work in a psychiatric hospital. God can and does heal.

I am glad you are in counseling. I also encourage you to find a mature Christian woman to disciple you. If you can't do that, then see if you can get involved in a woman's Bible study. Developing healthy relationships with women in a Bible study setting can be so powerful.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[goldenviolet]

Christina, bless your heart. asking for help is wise and is keeping you safe. i'd call a crisis line too. see what kind of support you can get. seeing a doctor is another way to get help. you can get referals, and learn more about your issues.

 

[gabrielListens]

I will pray for you Christina. I've been going through the same sort of feelings myself lately. In my case I'm just sort of losing hope in my life. Hang in there ok? I still have faith that God's will for me is to lead a more abundant life than the sad excuse for one that it is now, and I hope you can share that faith with me. I know its hard. Everyday I ponder why nothing seems to have changed even though I pray day and night while at the same time I have to tolerate the harshness of those who torment me on a daily basis. It would be so easy to just give in to the evil one right now and just go on a "pleasure binge" but I still fear the Lord and cannot deny my love for Jesus and The Virgin Mary. My only consolation is through reading scripture and knowing that through my acceptance of my suffering I become closer to God and to Jesus. I know that its difficult and when I feel like its too much I consult my bible or one of my scripture books and God always provides for me a direct answer to my particular situation. Its strange but its great and through that I know God is always with us.

God bless you and please take good care of yourself.

gabriel

p.s. I prayed for the Holy Spirit's guidance to find me a scripture which might help you and this is what I found. I hope it will have meaning for you Christina -

For thou art my hope, O Lord God: thou art my trust from my youth.
Psalm 71:5

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I can see how a person may think that you have too much pride to ask for help.
I believe there is a difference between being too proud to ask for help and feeling too worthless to want to bother anyone about your problems.

Pride is like...say my car breaks down and I have no money and now, no way to get to work. I refuse to ask the church or friends to help me out cause I'm not someone who "begs for money." I'm too proud for that.
I think that brief example is a decent illustration.

Ultimately you should consider what was said to you and whether or not it applies. it may or may not. Maybe it will allow your self-evaluating to uncover some pride that would otherwise gone undetected.

Either way, we are social beings. God created us this way. We need one another to get through life. It's ok to ask for help, support, and such. You might be surprised to find that you are not alone.

 

[pastel]

Support is a better healer than most other things.

 

[Crystal~Rose]

I too have struggled with reaching out to others for help. A dear friend of mine wrote these down on a note card and told me to keep it where I would see it everyday.

• Don't repress it, confess it.
• Don't conceal it, reveal it.
• Reveling your feelings is the beginning of healing.
• You are only as sick as your secrets.

I was also told ... The only way to keep God, is to endlessly give him away. Reach out and reach others. You may feel like you have nothing to offer this world but the truth is ....YOU DO! There could be someone out there that you and only you can reach. Pain ins the touchstone for all personal growth, take your pain and do something positive with it... inspire someone with your courage.
I hope you find these as helpful as I did. God bless you.

 

[StarryEyes]

Keep God in the center of your life. He will make your paths straight. He is truly all you need. He loves you more than you could ever phathom! Hang in there, things will improve.

In Him,
Amy

 

[fragmentsofbeauty]

Thanks everyone, those are all beautiful and encouraging things for me to hear, I appreciate it! (oh and I think I might go and write that list down )

Always,
Christina