So tired of OCD

[Subaru17]

So tired of OCD.

Tired of not knowing if what i feel/hear is God or just my mental state.
Afraid to burn, Afraid to live life. Can't move on, cant make decisions.

Tired of the blasphemous thoughts, vows, counter vows, compulsive vows, fear

Hearing people say its the devil, or its something I'm not doing.

Who wants to be trapped in Vows, blasphemous thoughts etc?

Went to church today, Felt like God was there, but I was raised in a group who would say that he wasn't. So I don't know.

I'm young, have a great job, house, good family, everything.
Why can't I enjoy it?

Why can't I be one of the Christians who say " thank you Jesus for making my life so wonderful, and having my back all the time"

not envious of them, Happy for them. Just don't know if that will ever be my place in life.

I'm sorry for all who suffer the same way, and I hope things get better for you.

 

[Bluerose31]

So tired of OCD.

Tired of not knowing if what i feel/hear is God or just my mental state.
Afraid to burn, Afraid to live life. Can't move on, cant make decisions.

Tired of the blasphemous thoughts, vows, counter vows, compulsive vows, fear

Hearing people say its the devil, or its something I'm not doing.

Who wants to be trapped in Vows, blasphemous thoughts etc?

Went to church today, Felt like God was there, but I was raised in a group who would say that he wasn't. So I don't know.

I'm young, have a great job, house, good family, everything.
Why can't I enjoy it?

Why can't I be one of the Christians who say " thank you Jesus for making my life so wonderful, and having my back all the time"

not envious of them, Happy for them. Just don't know if that will ever be my place in life.

I'm sorry for all who suffer the same way, and I hope things get better for you.

I am sorry you are hurting so much. I pray God will comfort you.

 

[DeerGlow]

So tired of OCD.

Tired of not knowing if what i feel/hear is God or just my mental state.
Afraid to burn, Afraid to live life. Can't move on, cant make decisions.

Tired of the blasphemous thoughts, vows, counter vows, compulsive vows, fear

Hearing people say its the devil, or its something I'm not doing.

Who wants to be trapped in Vows, blasphemous thoughts etc?

Went to church today, Felt like God was there, but I was raised in a group who would say that he wasn't. So I don't know.

I'm young, have a great job, house, good family, everything.
Why can't I enjoy it?

Why can't I be one of the Christians who say " thank you Jesus for making my life so wonderful, and having my back all the time"

not envious of them, Happy for them. Just don't know if that will ever be my place in life.

I'm sorry for all who suffer the same way, and I hope things get better for you.

I think I know that feeling, being stuck in cycles like I'll never be free of fear and anxiety swinging good-bad-good-bad never totally stable. But others say they see big improvements in me, maybe one day I'll be free of it all but sometimes it feels so hopeless. There are parables about persistence though that have a little hope in them. @Micopero posted something about overcoming OCD you might look at here.

 

[Mari17]

Please don't give up! I know how frustrating it can feel. I've been frustrated lately myself. BUT the truth is that your anguish is coming from OCD. I know it feels like it's God/your conscience, and to fight the OCD feels like you're fighting your conscience. BUT I think if you persevere in fighting it, you will find freedom and clarity. If it seems like OCD, treat it like OCD, even if you're not totally sure. Accept the thoughts without trying to fight them (it doesn't mean you agree with them, you just let them be there without trying to perform any compulsions to drive them away). Use an ERP script if you have to. But whatever you do, don't give up. I've heard too many success stories from people (yes, Christians with religious obsessions too!) who have gained freedom from OCD. Your OCD mind seems strong but you can starve out the anxiety if you refuse to give into it. It may take awhile, but you can do it!

 

[gloriousday2006]

I just want you to know that you are not alone. I am struggling severely as well. I do know one thing above all, and that is God is good. Put all your faith, hope, and trust in Him. Tell Him your fears and trust Him to take care of it. I feel that God is the great physician and He can heal us better than any human doctor. No matter how bad you feel, keep seeking Jesus. He is the answer....He will never leave you or forsake you. I am praying for you.