Sleepless in Cali..

[J. Putman]

I recently had the misfortune of being the topic (not sure if that is the proper word for it) in some family's lies. This person and now it seems like it could be more than just one person now are blaming me for broken relationships throughout our family. My parents have been battling with this along with me. Their only way to explain this as the other family member is jealous, drama queen, etc. I've removed this person from my life by removing all communication. I've never once told my parents or sister that they shouldn't or couldn't speak to them. I just calmly explained my reasoning and left it at that. It has been over a year with nothing more than a "hi" in public spaces. Now all of a sudden it's my fault for broken relationships with people I never once thought of being close to.

I've prayed for peace, for forgiveness, and in honesty, for them to eventually see the wrong they have done and accept Christ. I know that it's a tall order but now I can't sleep. Every time I close my eyes I think about the latest drama and how I wish I could respond but me being me I can't seem to do anything about it. I don't know what to do. I need my sleep (I don't want to be grouchy tomorrow) yet I can't get rid of this nagging, black mass that's encompassing my head and entering my heart.

Any ideas on how to fix this with taking in consideration if it's what God would want me to do?

 

[Mary7]

It sounds like you have done all you can do. We have to forgive but I don't see that we have to maintain a relationship with someone who has harmed us. Pray for their salvation but let the Lord deal with if and when they see what they have done. It is hard to stop the reenactment of wrongs done from playing in our minds and why does it have to happen mostly at night, lol.
When those thoughts come ask the Lord to bless that person then start thinking about something else to replace the thought. If that fails start counting and you should fall asleep.