*sigh*

[Finn88]

I feel totally hopeless...
my head is such a mess right now
Im thinking of finding a councelor

I never thought I would need one. I was doing alright...
Where is God in this?

i wanna cry but Ill wreck my makeup!

Finnx

 

[berry2000]

Aww Finn! Screw the make up go ahead and cry if you think it will help.

HAaving a counselor can be very helpful...there's no reason you should feel bad about that.

Hang in there.

 

[ChristInAction]

I was like that last night @ soul survivor. I started to cry but I was scared & I didnt wanna run my make up. But its ok to cry hun. If ur at home u can do it again after u cry!
If you think you need a councellor thats good. You should find one. I couldnt b'coz I cant deal with my mum knowing. I'm better off for my wellbeing that she doesnt know. But your old enough that that doesnt apply.
Hang in there hun. Its ok to stuggle with your relationship with God through this, He knows that we stuggle & His heart crys that you get hurt.
They said at soul yesterday that God didnt create us b'coz He was lonely or anything. He had all of Him. Father, that loved the Son & Holy spirit sooooooo much & Son, that loved the Father & Holy spirit soooooooo much & The Holy Spirit, loved the Father & Son sooooooooo much & they desided that they wanted to make you. They desided that they'd create someone that look like them, that smelt like them & spoke like them. Just to love. But b'coz of adem & eve that plan was distroyed but He planed that too, He sent the Son down to earth to die for YOU!! how cool is that. He loves you that much. You are in exsistence for God to love. Even though you have it hard here like me & so many other people. One day you will live in His house & sit on the thrown in heven with Him & the things of the earth will no longer hurt you & the awful things that have happened down here will be no more.

Ok sorry. I went on too much but all that really touched my heart last night b'coz I've been struggling too & thought it might help you.

 

[lavenderskies]

There is nothing wrong with crying, and I bet you are even more beautiful without it than you are with it!
Also seeking a counselor can be the most wonderful decision. I strongly suggest pastoral counselors. My daughter and I saw one after our family experienced a traumatic situation.
If I lived near you I would come over and give you a big hug!
I am praying for you!

 

[mamalonglegs]

I feel totally hopeless...
my head is such a mess right now
Im thinking of finding a councelor

I never thought I would need one. I was doing alright...
Where is God in this?

i wanna cry but Ill wreck my makeup!

Finnx

Oh Finn88,
Who cares about make-up*! I've been flooding my house laightly with tears because God has been reaching in to listen and be with me where it hurts the most. It seems messy but when it is over there is such peace that really is unexplainable. I've been thinkin' about hanging some life jackets by my door
Please don't let the devil confuse you about God's whereabouts. Read Psalm 139:5,9,10. You will see that His Hand is on you, He is guiding you, and holding you no matter where you are; even if you're trying to hide from He. His love has no boundries. It is a matter of us desireing His presence and not begging for perfection and relief. That comes with the package as we come to know Him and invite Him into our lives. I can guarantee that as truth.
He is right there with You. Try talking to Him and tell Him everything.
mamalonglegs: Eph. 6:18 & James 5:13-16

 

[Finn88]

I cried on Friday....and made a big mess of the makeup! :/
was supposed to be at Firestarters all wknd (Christian youth organisation that I work for) you would think it would be the safest place for me to be but i felt so under pressure, I knew i couldnt hold it together...i totally broke down, in fornt of everyone, made a totall mess and eventually went home...

So then I was the most peacfull Ive been for about a month, just dossin about on my own...

but now i feel kinda wierd for missing it...and now I'll have to face them again on Teusday...

I wish I could explain how Im feeling but I can only ever get as far as "Im not ok...."

Thanks for your replies...sometimes I just need a little attention...not that I do this for attention but, well, do you know what I mean?

Finnx

 

[mamalonglegs]

I cried on Friday....and made a big mess of the makeup! :/
was supposed to be at Firestarters all wknd (Christian youth organisation that I work for) you would think it would be the safest place for me to be but i felt so under pressure, I knew i couldnt hold it together...i totally broke down, in fornt of everyone, made a totall mess and eventually went home...

So then I was the most peacfull Ive been for about a month, just dossin about on my own...

but now i feel kinda wierd for missing it...and now I'll have to face them again on Teusday...

I wish I could explain how Im feeling but I can only ever get as far as "Im not ok...."

Thanks for your replies...sometimes I just need a little attention...not that I do this for attention but, well, do you know what I mean?

Finnx

Hey Finn,
We all know what you mean. It's called love and we all need it plenty of times. Don't fret about Tuesday because if they can't accept a person having a difficult day there's a problem. We all have bad days even each one from your organization. Let me leave you with this quote: "HOPE IS LIKE THE SUN, WHICH, AS WE JOURNEY TOWARD IT, CASTS THE SHADOW OF OUR BURDEN(S) BEHIND US."---Samuel Smiles
mamalonglegs

 

[B3li3v3r4ChRiSt]

Who cares about the make-up, hun? Just cry, let it all out.

Crying always helps me, in a time of need. I hug a stuffed bear, and I let it all out. I cry, I scream, I punch my pillow.

Who cares about make-up, just let it all out.

x

 

[Star_Flower21]

Crying is good for you...and not like broccoli is, like hugs are. I dunno. Wish I could be more help...but just hang in there. and also punching a pillow or somthing is a good idea too, sometimes that helps me.