This is long...i put ~T~ in the triggering part, it just sorta has a bit of background, sorry, i dont expect anyone to read
I had a friend, C, for six years. We clicked when we met, i was 13 and she was 15. We got along so well, People said we were so much like sisters, we argued alot but we were good friends. I looked up to her alot. I always trusted her oprions and jdugement. She was messed up though, although i didnt realise this until a couple of years ago. She had always been messed up. Im not sure why. I can pretty much guess she was abused herself when she was younger, she told so many messed up lies, i didnt even realise they were lies until afterwoods...
First year i was friends with her she had this boyfriend M, She broke up with him and according to her he stalked her and he r~!ed her and she had a restraining order on him. She would cry to me for horus while i listened, and now i know she made alot of it up. And yes i do know for a fact... Throughout the years she lied about having diabetes, being best friends with at least 2 famous people, she said that this other guy r~ped her a few years later and she went to court for that, she said this girl we both knew was r~ped on a particular night i know for a fact s e wasnt...She had also said this other girl she knew and i sort of knew was r~ped as well, which i dont know for sure is true but i find it highly unlikely for reasons ill explain if its needed...I never realised how messed up she was... Over four years we were good friends, had so many good times together....
In the year 2000 she started to change. She met a man online . Ill call him N, I guess she ahd such high needs to feel wanted... She would tell me about him, how he would say hew anted to meet her and he wuld go on about sexual fantasies he had, Once we were drunk and being silly and were talking to him online and saying we were lesbians...for some reason he believed us and started going on abut threesomes, saying sick things, he started talking to me online to, via the chat program ICQ i can not go near that program still. He would talk to me and ask me if he thought C liked him and how he wanted to be with her all the time, i hought itwas weird, but C was obviously flattered, she hadnt even met him yet and he was saying he wanted to be with her all the time,
He started asking me if i would do stuff with him, if i would be with him if he didnt have C, i always said no...He seemed to have this fixation on this sick fantasy he had....In the six months before either of us had met him, he had said sick things about torturing animals and about doing things with animals.... he would say things about R*pe, He would say things about me and C, i dont think the drunk conversation about lesbians ever left his head, even though there was absolute no truth it it,, it didtn freak me out too much, coz we only knew him online..
Then C decided to meet him,he lived about an hour away, she she went to where they were supposed to meet and he didnt come, she met him and thought he was weird, but she eventually started going with him, even though she said sometimes he would be walking and would see him just sitting in his car watching her...he always had such a werid look in his eyes, i met him with her once , he was shy, didnt really talk, i just thought he was weird but never thought he would be violent..
During the 2nd half of 2000 C moved in with hin, he started making her not talk to anyone, and isolated her from everyone, according to her, he would constantly put her down and not let her do anything....She told me he said things like "would it hurt if i r~ped you" or "would it hurt if i thew you through the window" .She told me he forced her to eat dog food on more then one occasion....
In about April 2001, after i hadnt seen C for 8 months, and she was living an hour away from me, she called me and asked me if i wanted to go see her in a musical she was in at a church, i thought it would be good opportunity to go see her so i said yeah, the whole time i had thought ill get the train home afterwoods, ...
I knew i didnt trust N, i knew i never wanted to be alone with him, but i thought with C around everything would be fine... About a week before i went up there, i was online and N messaged me and started saying i shoud stay for the whole weekend, C really missed me he would say, he would say it was too dangerous to go home on the train late at night, so he convinced me to stay overnight.... He started actng strange, saying i should stay home with him while C did the night performance, I said i didnt want to, i said ill go to the night one to, he started making every excuse why he didnt want to go and why i should stay at the house with him.. I beat myself up so much for so long about this conversation i had had with him, i should of trusted my instincs, but again, i thought with C there it woud be ok...i guess i still didnt think he could be violent...she told me later that year that he had done things like forced her to let him take photos of her in disgusting positions, and whenever she went to visit her parents he would constantly ring saying that her dog/cat was dead..
**T**
i dont know how much imput she had into what happened, i know she knew something was going on, im not sure how much she knew. We went and got some alchohol, N didnt drink at all, i know i had some drink, but not much, The first thing i started feeling uncomfortable about was when we were just all sitting there and C just started giving N o**l s*x right in front of me, like it was normal.., Then he asked if i wanted a turn just like it was some normal thing to do..., i said no..we had some more drinks, N went and got more alchohol from the kitchen, To this day i am almost 100% sure he spiked my drink... He told me to drink it like he basically was holding it at my mouth and puring it down my throat, i said i felt sick and he poured me another drink and told me to scull it, i donno why i did but i did, i felt sick, i went to the toilet and when i came out he was standing there and he was fully nude and he pushed me onto the floor and made me give him o**l s*x I said i felt sick and was going to bed, i remember going into the spare room and passing out or something, i woke up and he was dragging me off the bed, and taking my clothes off, C was there drunk, laughing and saying he shouldnt do it like it was some funny joke... He somehow half dragged me and i think i half got there into his room, He made me do things to him, he made me and C do things to each other, disgusting things, THen C passed out or something, N started r*ping me again and i told him i didnt want to do it and i kicked him, He got so angry at me, he started slapping me and saying he was going ot kill me, C left the room about that time, then he r*ped me again and again for i dont know how long, he called me every name he could think of, there was one time i tried to get off the bed, he had a knife from somewhere and started saying he was going to do things to me with it and then he started making me tell him how much it would hurt if he did these things, and he made me tell him he was hurting me and made me beg him to stop ,
**end T**
The next day i seriously did not remember being r*ped, it was so weird, it was like i blocked it out of my mind, even a few months later when i was getting memories it was only some, ive only remembered the worst of it in the past couple of years , He started stalking me after that, C never knew or never believed anything or ignored it , i tried to be friends with her for a year after she seemed to want to leave him and seemed to be, but she never did, i had to stop being friends with her, he assaulted me again in public a year later,
Last year C sent me a letter apologising, saying she knew we couldnt be friends but she wanted to say sorry for everything that happened and she knows i am telling the truth. I knew shew as telling the truth that time, she was referring to N as "my ex" and stuff, i finally sent her an email and we sorted alot out and it brought about alot of closure....
Anyway tahts my story..
I had a friend, C, for six years. We clicked when we met, i was 13 and she was 15. We got along so well, People said we were so much like sisters, we argued alot but we were good friends. I looked up to her alot. I always trusted her oprions and jdugement. She was messed up though, although i didnt realise this until a couple of years ago. She had always been messed up. Im not sure why. I can pretty much guess she was abused herself when she was younger, she told so many messed up lies, i didnt even realise they were lies until afterwoods...
First year i was friends with her she had this boyfriend M, She broke up with him and according to her he stalked her and he r~!ed her and she had a restraining order on him. She would cry to me for horus while i listened, and now i know she made alot of it up. And yes i do know for a fact... Throughout the years she lied about having diabetes, being best friends with at least 2 famous people, she said that this other guy r~ped her a few years later and she went to court for that, she said this girl we both knew was r~ped on a particular night i know for a fact s e wasnt...She had also said this other girl she knew and i sort of knew was r~ped as well, which i dont know for sure is true but i find it highly unlikely for reasons ill explain if its needed...I never realised how messed up she was... Over four years we were good friends, had so many good times together....
In the year 2000 she started to change. She met a man online . Ill call him N, I guess she ahd such high needs to feel wanted... She would tell me about him, how he would say hew anted to meet her and he wuld go on about sexual fantasies he had, Once we were drunk and being silly and were talking to him online and saying we were lesbians...for some reason he believed us and started going on abut threesomes, saying sick things, he started talking to me online to, via the chat program ICQ i can not go near that program still. He would talk to me and ask me if he thought C liked him and how he wanted to be with her all the time, i hought itwas weird, but C was obviously flattered, she hadnt even met him yet and he was saying he wanted to be with her all the time,
He started asking me if i would do stuff with him, if i would be with him if he didnt have C, i always said no...He seemed to have this fixation on this sick fantasy he had....In the six months before either of us had met him, he had said sick things about torturing animals and about doing things with animals.... he would say things about R*pe, He would say things about me and C, i dont think the drunk conversation about lesbians ever left his head, even though there was absolute no truth it it,, it didtn freak me out too much, coz we only knew him online..
Then C decided to meet him,he lived about an hour away, she she went to where they were supposed to meet and he didnt come, she met him and thought he was weird, but she eventually started going with him, even though she said sometimes he would be walking and would see him just sitting in his car watching her...he always had such a werid look in his eyes, i met him with her once , he was shy, didnt really talk, i just thought he was weird but never thought he would be violent..
During the 2nd half of 2000 C moved in with hin, he started making her not talk to anyone, and isolated her from everyone, according to her, he would constantly put her down and not let her do anything....She told me he said things like "would it hurt if i r~ped you" or "would it hurt if i thew you through the window" .She told me he forced her to eat dog food on more then one occasion....
In about April 2001, after i hadnt seen C for 8 months, and she was living an hour away from me, she called me and asked me if i wanted to go see her in a musical she was in at a church, i thought it would be good opportunity to go see her so i said yeah, the whole time i had thought ill get the train home afterwoods, ...
I knew i didnt trust N, i knew i never wanted to be alone with him, but i thought with C around everything would be fine... About a week before i went up there, i was online and N messaged me and started saying i shoud stay for the whole weekend, C really missed me he would say, he would say it was too dangerous to go home on the train late at night, so he convinced me to stay overnight.... He started actng strange, saying i should stay home with him while C did the night performance, I said i didnt want to, i said ill go to the night one to, he started making every excuse why he didnt want to go and why i should stay at the house with him.. I beat myself up so much for so long about this conversation i had had with him, i should of trusted my instincs, but again, i thought with C there it woud be ok...i guess i still didnt think he could be violent...she told me later that year that he had done things like forced her to let him take photos of her in disgusting positions, and whenever she went to visit her parents he would constantly ring saying that her dog/cat was dead..
**T**
i dont know how much imput she had into what happened, i know she knew something was going on, im not sure how much she knew. We went and got some alchohol, N didnt drink at all, i know i had some drink, but not much, The first thing i started feeling uncomfortable about was when we were just all sitting there and C just started giving N o**l s*x right in front of me, like it was normal.., Then he asked if i wanted a turn just like it was some normal thing to do..., i said no..we had some more drinks, N went and got more alchohol from the kitchen, To this day i am almost 100% sure he spiked my drink... He told me to drink it like he basically was holding it at my mouth and puring it down my throat, i said i felt sick and he poured me another drink and told me to scull it, i donno why i did but i did, i felt sick, i went to the toilet and when i came out he was standing there and he was fully nude and he pushed me onto the floor and made me give him o**l s*x I said i felt sick and was going to bed, i remember going into the spare room and passing out or something, i woke up and he was dragging me off the bed, and taking my clothes off, C was there drunk, laughing and saying he shouldnt do it like it was some funny joke... He somehow half dragged me and i think i half got there into his room, He made me do things to him, he made me and C do things to each other, disgusting things, THen C passed out or something, N started r*ping me again and i told him i didnt want to do it and i kicked him, He got so angry at me, he started slapping me and saying he was going ot kill me, C left the room about that time, then he r*ped me again and again for i dont know how long, he called me every name he could think of, there was one time i tried to get off the bed, he had a knife from somewhere and started saying he was going to do things to me with it and then he started making me tell him how much it would hurt if he did these things, and he made me tell him he was hurting me and made me beg him to stop ,
**end T**
The next day i seriously did not remember being r*ped, it was so weird, it was like i blocked it out of my mind, even a few months later when i was getting memories it was only some, ive only remembered the worst of it in the past couple of years , He started stalking me after that, C never knew or never believed anything or ignored it , i tried to be friends with her for a year after she seemed to want to leave him and seemed to be, but she never did, i had to stop being friends with her, he assaulted me again in public a year later,
Last year C sent me a letter apologising, saying she knew we couldnt be friends but she wanted to say sorry for everything that happened and she knows i am telling the truth. I knew shew as telling the truth that time, she was referring to N as "my ex" and stuff, i finally sent her an email and we sorted alot out and it brought about alot of closure....
Anyway tahts my story..
