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Lot of good stuff on here. I'm new so im gonna just jump in. Im probably gonna throw you a lot of random stuff.. thats just how i work and it might be a good way of intrducing myself.
We learn from the bible that we are woderfully and fearfully made. That God considers the individual as unique and with high price considering He shed his blood for us. We learn that even in the womb, He already knew us. With that said and in light of the many chruch stock answers you get for problems that really have no answers, being this unique can make things kinda sticky.
We are no doubt made with great design! Look at an anatomy book if this ever comes in question for you. In our uniqueness however, can make a shared illness with exact properties, act differently from one person another. This, among other reasons, is why cancer is so baffling at times. Bipolar is no different.
Bottom line is that the cause of bipolar is really original sin. We live in a fallen world. Thats why we die. For me, it works to keep that part of things very simple. To keep God that simple for that matter. There are enough complicated things in my life already then to have to deal with complicating the very simple truths of God. So how did i get bipolar? I've heard the possibilties, but i really don't care about the "why" anymore. No more than I care about firguring out quantum physics. I would be wasting time and the limited energy I get with this disease.
Instead I try to focus my energies on the things that I can control. Medication. Behavior. Ownership.
Medication is not optional and I don't care who you are or who you think you are. If the meds you are on now are not working, then call your doctor (use the emergency line) and get it changed. This is your lifeline!!! Thinking im being over the top? 1 in 5 bipolars kill themselves. A lot of cancers have a better success rate than that. If your not on your meds, its the same as killing yourself slowly in front of your loved ones who stand by helplessly and watch your destruction. This with me is non-negotiable.
It is not wrong or sin to be ill. I know very well at times that it feels that way. Its hard to reconsile your emotions or behavior at times with the love of Christ or the truth of God. But we are responsible for our behavior, and our actions do have consiquences whether we are ill or not. Which leads me to ownership...
Ownership of the illness and actions and behavior. I know the biggest break through that i had was when i understood this was mine. For years i balked at the idea that it was my responsibility, but I can say that my freedom started wehn I made it my own. I don't mean this in a blame the victim sort of way, my point is finer than that. When you start to own the illness/disease that you have and the behaviors and actions that go with, people around will respond to that. They see your effort and your willingness for management. It's hard--no lie. It requires changing thinking patterns and habbits. For me started when i got up each morning and siad "God, I have faith in you!" "I dont know how, but you can teach me." then i would go to the mirror and tell my self that I liked me and that i was doing a good job. It tasted like vomit at first, but if I could lie to myself all those years telling myself I was worthless, the mathematically and truthfully I could equally tell myself i was worth something.
Clear your head about what you think you know about God from all that you've learned. You have to seperate from that and start with a clean slate. Dont worry, God is on autopilot and knows what you are going through. I remember having to understand that my heart beated just like everyone elses and my lungs breathed just like most do. I was a human being, and in my humanity, my human condition, I learned that i was a child of God. Not because 20+ years of christianity told me so. Not because of faith. But Because, my head was clearer and my soul was hungry and in a moment of clarity, I was reminded that my body functions like a human, just like it was created to do, and with that I can see that I am wonderfully and fearfully made and that even in the womb, God knew me.
Seth
We learn from the bible that we are woderfully and fearfully made. That God considers the individual as unique and with high price considering He shed his blood for us. We learn that even in the womb, He already knew us. With that said and in light of the many chruch stock answers you get for problems that really have no answers, being this unique can make things kinda sticky.
We are no doubt made with great design! Look at an anatomy book if this ever comes in question for you. In our uniqueness however, can make a shared illness with exact properties, act differently from one person another. This, among other reasons, is why cancer is so baffling at times. Bipolar is no different.
Bottom line is that the cause of bipolar is really original sin. We live in a fallen world. Thats why we die. For me, it works to keep that part of things very simple. To keep God that simple for that matter. There are enough complicated things in my life already then to have to deal with complicating the very simple truths of God. So how did i get bipolar? I've heard the possibilties, but i really don't care about the "why" anymore. No more than I care about firguring out quantum physics. I would be wasting time and the limited energy I get with this disease.
Instead I try to focus my energies on the things that I can control. Medication. Behavior. Ownership.
Medication is not optional and I don't care who you are or who you think you are. If the meds you are on now are not working, then call your doctor (use the emergency line) and get it changed. This is your lifeline!!! Thinking im being over the top? 1 in 5 bipolars kill themselves. A lot of cancers have a better success rate than that. If your not on your meds, its the same as killing yourself slowly in front of your loved ones who stand by helplessly and watch your destruction. This with me is non-negotiable.
It is not wrong or sin to be ill. I know very well at times that it feels that way. Its hard to reconsile your emotions or behavior at times with the love of Christ or the truth of God. But we are responsible for our behavior, and our actions do have consiquences whether we are ill or not. Which leads me to ownership...
Ownership of the illness and actions and behavior. I know the biggest break through that i had was when i understood this was mine. For years i balked at the idea that it was my responsibility, but I can say that my freedom started wehn I made it my own. I don't mean this in a blame the victim sort of way, my point is finer than that. When you start to own the illness/disease that you have and the behaviors and actions that go with, people around will respond to that. They see your effort and your willingness for management. It's hard--no lie. It requires changing thinking patterns and habbits. For me started when i got up each morning and siad "God, I have faith in you!" "I dont know how, but you can teach me." then i would go to the mirror and tell my self that I liked me and that i was doing a good job. It tasted like vomit at first, but if I could lie to myself all those years telling myself I was worthless, the mathematically and truthfully I could equally tell myself i was worth something.
Clear your head about what you think you know about God from all that you've learned. You have to seperate from that and start with a clean slate. Dont worry, God is on autopilot and knows what you are going through. I remember having to understand that my heart beated just like everyone elses and my lungs breathed just like most do. I was a human being, and in my humanity, my human condition, I learned that i was a child of God. Not because 20+ years of christianity told me so. Not because of faith. But Because, my head was clearer and my soul was hungry and in a moment of clarity, I was reminded that my body functions like a human, just like it was created to do, and with that I can see that I am wonderfully and fearfully made and that even in the womb, God knew me.
Seth
