Serious Stuff

[GreyWolf]

Hi. First of all, I'd like to apologize to everyone for not being around. I haven't been online much, and was spending a lot of time in bed.

Then some serious stuff started happening.

First off, I may have diabetes. I had the test on Thursday and haven't heard back yet. I don't know what I will do if I have it- I am such an emotional eater and am addicted to suger, I'm not sure I can make the lifestyle changes that are neccesery.

Then I was diagnosed as having a hormone imabalence. They don't know what is causing it. Apparently, I can't have children. It may be my thyroid, or a growth in my brain. I had an MRI. It also may be the medication. If it is, I have to live with it- I can't go off the medication for my bipolar.

But these are minor problems.

A week ago, one night, I went blind in one eye. I was rushed to the hospital and had an emergency CAT scan which, thank God, turned out ok. Also thank God, I regained my vision. But my doctor thinks it was a blood clot- and I have to go in for more tests. I may have a blockage in my carotid artery or a growth on my heart- either one is life-threatening and would require a potentially fatal operation.

Here I've been suicidal for so long and now the choice may be taken out of my hands. I don't know how to feel. In a way I feel releived that maybe I can die without doing it myself. In another way I'm scared. And a big part of me really wants to live.

Not only all that, but I am having serious trouble with money. I have 33 cents in my bank account and don't get more money until the 1st. I am way behind in my electic bill, and if I don't pay by Nov 12 I will get my electicity shut off (there is no way I can pay it all by then) I worked out a payment plan, but missed my payment this month. I am trying to apply for aid. If I don't get it, I will lose my electicity. Fortunately, my heat won'tbe affected, but it'll be hard to live in the dark without a computer or phone until I can pay it all back.

Here I am, not even sure what I believe, but I am asking for prayer. Please pray for me.

I will keep everyoen updated.

Again, I'm sorry I haven't been in touch.

 

[Alive again]

Dearest friend, Thank you so much for checking in and letting us know you are here and how you are doing. Prayers are going up on your behalf. Please email me at rlvws@juno.com. I am not sure if I still have your email. Praying!

 

[Soulwings]

Love, I'm so sorry to hear about all that's been happening. Will be praying for you... know that we all have been thinking of you. Thank you so much for updating, even though it's serious stuff. Hang as tough as you can.

 

[Stephen Kendall]

Dear Grey Wolf,

I hope that you will overcome these problems. I have been an advocate of running exercises. I have had many verge of problems and sicknesses. They all seem to abate when I return to running. This summer was no exception. I most likely had every bad thing in the book. I don't even want to know all that was going on inside of me (most likely anything from gout to probable beginning heart disease). I had been eating poorly, missing sleep & my exercises. I couldn't even run when I tried to address these terrible pains through my regular way (very healthy eating (fresh from the garden (fresh or frozen produce) to you), sleep and regular exercise. I have been to doctors many times in the past, but found myself self-correcting issues of health and not needing them anymore. The mental part of health seems to be the wall that separates us from action. The action, once committed, allows us penetration through any wall. Being a Christian is the same. Our faith is a body that needs activity to be called alive. Just sitting there without obeying Christ is a lifeless body. The rehabilitation necessary to bring a lifeless body to life is slow, but vital. We need to apply the teachings of Christ to bring our faith spiritual body to life. Praise God!

Love you and may our Father help you each moment.

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Hang in there Greywolf you'll be alright!

 

[Jeshu]

Hi Greywolf,

Great to see you surviving. Horrible to hear you facing even more difficult tests with regards to your health.

I hope and pray you will experience God walking beside you, as this makes life so much brighter even if it is hard.

Psalm 23


Gerry