Hi, I'm SA, but have been able to attend meetings only occasionally because of location (4 - 8 hours round trip).
I have talked with therapists over the years about my addiction to the point where I don't know what else to talk about. My obsesion lessened to some level after being heard, but I feel it is with me and it is so true that an addict will be an addict until death.
Even if I stayed sober, it will be with discontentment. I know I will feel fulfillment only when I'm acting out like I used to.
Why am I SA? I think being AA or NA or something other than SA will be more tolerable.
People around me cannot understand my depression and I am now painfully aware how addiction destroys human affection. People can put up with cancer or physical/mental handicap, but I can never come out as SA in real life. It will only invite prejudice.
Please pray for me.
I have talked with therapists over the years about my addiction to the point where I don't know what else to talk about. My obsesion lessened to some level after being heard, but I feel it is with me and it is so true that an addict will be an addict until death.
Even if I stayed sober, it will be with discontentment. I know I will feel fulfillment only when I'm acting out like I used to.
Why am I SA? I think being AA or NA or something other than SA will be more tolerable.
People around me cannot understand my depression and I am now painfully aware how addiction destroys human affection. People can put up with cancer or physical/mental handicap, but I can never come out as SA in real life. It will only invite prejudice.
Please pray for me.
