Self control

[PorcelainHeart]

Does anyone have a problem with self control? I do, I have a spell and freak out in real life and All over CF! I'm scared of being banned when I lose control, Im trying to be better, this is a great forum.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Kayia


I just found out I'm not alone!!!!


Thank GOD we got some good folks running the show!!!


Maybe that's why they have the 7 warnings. Cause of folks like us!!!


WE NEED TO REMEMBER:




X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[PorcelainHeart]

7 warnings?

 

[PrairieGurl]

Dearest Kayia,

If by a problem with self control means doing something stupid (even if you know it's bad for you) over and over again....I then must say I understand

I explained this "problem" in youthwalk's "feeling trippy" posting.

dear kayia

 

[PrairieGurl]

Dearest Kaiya,

You're right Hon, not many people in this world understand bp...I have to look to the One who knows EVERYTHING about me, loves me and is there for me ALWAYS !!!

's to you!!!

 

[radiochic]

Kaiya:

I've been there. It's what caused me to get fired from my job and end up in the hospital. It took me a little while, but I learned that my family is just trying to help me, even if it seems like they think I'm crazy. I still have my days where I'm up and down, but I'm not nearly how I was a few months ago. Good ol' meds... I hated taking them at first but I've realized they really do help once you get the right ones. And then once you get the right ones you'll get the self control... and it's great to have support systems in place... like family and friends and this board, it's nice to know that people are experiencing the same things you are

 

[goldenviolet]

Kaiya, dear little sis, you won't be banned for struggling with things. we moderate only when rules are broken. if it isn't about rules, we call it ministering to a member.

moderating is a ministery to every staff we all have our own style, but each one of us prays for you and ourselves that we do our job for Jesus well.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

thanks, I been banned from forums before for being manic. I would just get all sad and overeact, its very hard to deal with, And in school I attacked a teacher who was only trying to help. I cussed at my friends, overact to mods, I seem to always be acting stupid and over emotional, And anything brings me over the edge and start wanting to die. But if people look beyond how I act sometimes when I'm sick, they would see I'm a very cool and sweet person. I really don't mean to harm people, but when I get sick I lose all self control and dont' even know what I'm saying or doing half the time. I want to be on CF, but I don't want people to not like me, think im crazy or a lier, I can't control what I do and say alot of times.

 

[goldenviolet]

i know exactly what you mean. i hope it makes you feel better to know that the older you get, the easier dealing with mood swings it becomes. you gain more control with practing getting stronger, and God's love helps too.
i learned the hard way. no one taught me how to do it. i just learned until as an adult i put myself in therephy.
the mental hospitals i lived in just contained me. doctors back then just locked you up. now there is support groups and counselors and even free crisis hot lines. i'm thankful for all these things. even the churches are getting more helpful to those with mental health issues.

don't give up honey. keep searching for what works and surround yourself with it.

 

[spdnet75]

Kaiya, your words in this particular place speak to friends and to people who recognize what you are going through. There is no judgement and there is no ill will. You're simply speaking with friends and with people who may help you to see the light that you need to see for yourself.

We all want to be balanced. We all see that the majority don't understand our plight. We're here for one another and the floor is always open when you need to speak.

God bless girl. You are far from alone today.
Stephen

 

[PorcelainHeart]

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[peaceful_angel]

You are not alone Kaiya. I listen to a lot of calming music during the day and when I say calming I mean very mellow piano music and things that tend to bring my heart rate down. I struggle with the temper thing at times but I am also working on it. If you ever need to talk just send me a message on here Hugs to you and you are not alone sis!

 

[PorcelainHeart]

When, I'm depressed, I listen to tori amos, alanis morissette, jewel and other songwriters
when im manic I listen to pop and dance music

 

[goldenviolet]

kaiya, for more ideas on things to make you feel better read the sticky 'bipolar exsperts'. it is a thread made by us who live in these cycles of bipolar. we list the things that make us feel better.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

ok, shall do.

Anime
being a fangirl(sometimes)
music
going out
make me feel better.

I feel my normal self right now,I hope it sticks.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Dearest Kaiya

Glad to hear your feeling like your "normal self right now" Enjoy this moment by moment, day by day, soak it up and don't look beyond and "hope it will stick" ( sometimes i get so wrapped up in "hoping it will stick" that i miss the time of "feeling normal")

's to you

 

[cyberfugue]

I have this very same problem sometimes, Kaiya. I can't control what I'm about to say, even though I know that it is better that I keep quiet. I'll react very badly to people sometimes and then feel badly about it afterwards (especially with loved ones). The problem is, I'd rather cut it off BEFORE, but can't. So I think I know what you are dealing with.

Prayers and blessings in Christ to you.