school shooter..

[Frankarmendariz]

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[Catherineanne]

in my school two kids had a list on kids they want to kill, the school only suspended them and now their back in school, thats outrages! then one of the goofy teacher jokingly said that i'll protect us. thats where the ocd stepped in, i had to touch things around me to prevent it from happening, there was dust on the desk (i think it was dust) and i tried blowing it off and it wouldnt so i just swiped it with my hand. now i think if something happens itll be all my fault, i dont even know what one of the kids look like, i spoke to one of them but like last year, i say hi to him in the hallway rarely, i never see him. im now depressed and thinking if the school ever has a masscre even if i graduate itll be my fault, and tht ill go to hell. i had to touch a spot on the street to prevent anything from happening but if i did demons would come out from that spot so i didnt touch it. that was a lose/lose thought. im definately overthinking it, i told the teacher that said ill protect everyone about my illness and he said he didnt mean anything, he wish he wouldve known before etc.. i stayed in bed for about 15 hours really down and out im trying not have a panic attack, this whole 'problem' makes life suck​

I am really sorry for your suffering, Frank.

Can you go to see your doctor to ask for some help?

In the meantime, you are not responsible for what other people do. You are only responsible for what you do yourself. Whatever happens in the future in your school will not be your fault unless you are the one doing it, and you are not capable of hurting anyone, I think.

I hope you find someone to help you to understand this, and to help with the anxiety.

Lord, have mercy,
Christ, have mercy,
Lord, have mercy.

 

[tripletiger1200]

You cannot control the actions of others. I am sorry that you are having such a rough time, I pray that the Lord will heal you and give you peace. In the mean time, keep hanging in there.